*sigh I can't help but feel im the only one now who seems to enjoy the taste. As soon as I start drinking I can't help but put on a little smile, I drink it down and quite often some of it will spill over and drip off my chin. To a degree I even savour it. It's always a fantastic sight when I get blind drunk, come home, begin a filter then pass out before I get to drink. Il wake up feeling shitty and seedy the room spinning and I roll over to find a glass of clear bitter water, the answer to my problems. I drink it down (a little smile) then curl up for a little longer, smileing because im so happy that I found it. Then il get up and have a beer.
I don't usally have a drink in the morning but when im seedy and hung over if I have 2 doses of codeine and 3 beers I feel perfect in 3 hours.
Codeine to me is like weed to a stoner. Any situation it will fix me up.
For a long while iv been having 2-4 packs a day but I dunno what it is, maybe im just getting older because my useage is dropping off on its own. Every 3-4th day now and im less concerned about getting it.
Dunno if I would consider it a blessing or a curse. The cons are it cost a lot (habbit) and its an addiction. But then I think "Is that so bad? I can afford it and im always happy. Alot of people would do anything just to be happy. Plus if I hadnt had tryed and loved codeine I would have tried heroin. Now I relised just how much I love codeine iv decided never to try any harder opiates. Might have been the best decision I ever made.
Make's me want to drink some right now!