I have insomnia too. Ambien works very well to help "reset my schedule" but you cannot rely on it 7 days a week because 1) its not "real" sleep, you dont feel actually rested and 2) the rebound insomnia will be crazy.
Honestly bro, do you want to sleep? You say you take your kpins at night and just stay up smoking weed anyway, not sleep. Perhaps I just read too deeply into this and you only do it on occasion, but the impression I got was that you just want these to get fucked up, not for insomnia. At least be straight with us man, we dont care:
Are the meds for actually helping you sleep, or do you just want them to get fucked up?
As I said idgaf either way I just wanna know. I truly suffer from insomnia and loved the fact that I found a med that helped me (when I had a doc that scripted it also). I was simply overjoyed with the idea that i could get some sleep.
Do you really suffer as badly as all insomniacs do, where sleep is up is something you would kill for?
If you want to go to sleep man (which any person who suffers from insomnia will tell you is basically the goal of their existence. here i am, ambien-less up at 5AM posting on bluelight for some random person) get put on the ambien. Wont tempt you to get fucked up (as much), and will actually HELP you get to bed way better in my opinion.
HOWEVER: I will say that after getting used to ambien, the effects can be VERY SIMILAR to a benzo. Very, very, very similar (for obvious reasons). The first few times you take ambien and get "messed up" its very trippy, almost dream like...
After getting used to it, however, it simply will mellow you out, much akin to xanax or klonopin. You will be "fucked up" similar to a benzo, but it will have the added bonus of keeping you knocked the fuck out for a solid 8 hours. Seriously, it is near impossible to wake up from an ambien induced "nap". You better not have anything to do for those next 8 hours man, b/c if you pass out too late on your ambien you will sleep through w/e you have to do in those 8 hours.
Also: I am NOT simply talking about tolerance here: I did not take ambien daily and build up huge tolerances, I am simply talking about "getting used to it". A bottle of 30 ambien would last me quite a few months, utilizing it as you should (resetting your schedule and for emergencys), so there was no real buildup of chemical tolerance.