Ill never forget you Julian. Even when times were rough, somehow those times only strengthened our everlasting friendship. I wish you would have cut your hair like I always teased you about, but ill never forget you.
I will tell all of you how this Man lived. He lived with purpose. Determination. He came from a very suffocating environment and like me, had a very rough childhood and adolescence and teenage years that just even in adulthood continued to hold us down, but we fought back so hard. We fought a good fight. I will continue to fight our fight in loving memory, Julian will never be forgotten and his place in my heart will forever live alongside me. He lost his mother to cancer at a young age and had it so much worse than me. Julian was depressed like me. He was a light that shined so bright and reminded me of my personal quote "Sometimes the brightest of lights shine from the darkest of places." Julian was one of the brightest lights, minds, soul and body that I ever have met and had the chance to get to know him.
You and I wanted so much to experience unconditional love. You came closer to it than I ever have. Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness. We walked a boulevard of broken dreams, we self medicated similarly. Your poison wasnt methamphetamine but alcohol. Benzodiazepines. We shared a love for guns. I will never forget the years we spent on AIM and the many plans for the future that included us both. It hurts me to think that they will never come to be. But I'm going to continue to fight. For us. For you. For everything that you loved. We hated eachothers music, and I remember how we would recall the first time we ever spoke and I told you that I hated your guts and that we truly built such a huge friendship from absolutely nothing, below the ground to the skyscraper we built.
He lived. He loved. He lost.
I will never forget you brother.