I'm currently going through a very rough time in life, low self esteem, long bouts of depression, anxiety and all the sort. The only reason why I ask this is because I'm in need of a different state of mind than the one I'm currently in. Right now I feel as if nothing will go right and my life has nothing but failure written all over it.
I'm 23 years old, having experienced plenty of drug use in my past. (Mainly MJ) I've got a general understanding about how they affect me. I suspect that I have a wide array of mental illnesses that stem on the fact that I just feel out of place in this society and that I can't connect with people and am just socially awkward to the point of where it hurts. My experience with shrooms at a younger age, wasn't necessarily good considering I had a terrible setting (at my parents house with a few friends that inside I didn't really trust) but it wasn't life changingly bad by any means. This time I would be doing them with people I feel extremely comfortable with and will have someone sober looking after us. The only problem I have with the idea is that I tend to overthink alot of things and criticize myself to an unhealthy level which could possibly negatively affect the trip(if I let it) the goal of this whole post is to get some insight from the more experienced trippers here on if this is a realistic goal or if I'm just setting myself up for failure? (At this point of time I feel like my mindset couldn't get any worse to be honest)