Guess_so88
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About 7 months ago i took 2 hits of acid, and had the worst night of my life. It was my first time, and I was so stupid to not do some research first. I literally had no idea what i was getting myself into. And my cousin and I also smoked a crap ton of weed which only intensified it much more. I couldn't separate what was weed and what was acid. It was like I could zoom in tho and see both at the same time. And I was stuck in the worst thought loops, and I tried so hard to get out of them but it was impossible. And everything was outlined with a smoky black, and legs turns black and crumbled up, i was screaming at one point bc all my teeth had fell out and I was swallowing them, felt like my blood was boiling and I was being tortured to death. I couldn't even talk right and at one point i just wanted to die. I didn't think it's ever end. It was so intense, I couldn't handle it and I definitely wasn't ready for anything like that.
The next day I had smoked some weed with my cousin and felt completely find didn't even think about it, had a good ass time. But then a few days later I was chillin smoking by myself and all of a sudden the acid affects started coming back and it really freaked me out. So I hurry and go outside to my aunt and it was sunny outside, but to me it just looked dim and everything had layers. And I was just so scared. I was terrified to be left alone so I didn't smoke for a long time. And then I was too scared to go to bed at night. I only got a couple of hours of sleep during the day when the sun was out. And I had been sooo overly sensitive, and the world just seemed like a much darker place. I just got so depressed bc all I ever felt was fear and anxiety/panic. And it got a little better with time. So about a month and1/2 later I wanted to try smoking weed again with a couple of friends. And I was really nervous so I was only gonna smoke a little. Took 2 hits and panicked. Everything was turning dark and my friends looked evil and everytime I looked at a color, that same color everywhere just stood out completely and it was freaking me out so bad. Started bawling and had to call my mom and dad to come get me.
Dad talked me through things and calmed me down. Mom wasn't happy about me doing drugs, and was in shock. My dad was trying to tell me to make the best of it. That it was an opening for me and I'm connected deeper with the universe and on a higher level than most people in the world.
Before I took acid I would smoke week all the time tho. I did is responsible. But it was just my thing. I had fun, made everything a blast. Now I got all my friends smoking and I can't bc I'm too scared. It's been about 7 months now and I still sleep with the lights on and put on tinkerbell every night to fall asleep. I'm getting better but I still have moments I freak out.
I just really wish I could smoke and have fun/feel happy like I used to. Why does it make me trip when I smoke weed? Will it ever stop? Will I ever be normal again?
The next day I had smoked some weed with my cousin and felt completely find didn't even think about it, had a good ass time. But then a few days later I was chillin smoking by myself and all of a sudden the acid affects started coming back and it really freaked me out. So I hurry and go outside to my aunt and it was sunny outside, but to me it just looked dim and everything had layers. And I was just so scared. I was terrified to be left alone so I didn't smoke for a long time. And then I was too scared to go to bed at night. I only got a couple of hours of sleep during the day when the sun was out. And I had been sooo overly sensitive, and the world just seemed like a much darker place. I just got so depressed bc all I ever felt was fear and anxiety/panic. And it got a little better with time. So about a month and1/2 later I wanted to try smoking weed again with a couple of friends. And I was really nervous so I was only gonna smoke a little. Took 2 hits and panicked. Everything was turning dark and my friends looked evil and everytime I looked at a color, that same color everywhere just stood out completely and it was freaking me out so bad. Started bawling and had to call my mom and dad to come get me.
Dad talked me through things and calmed me down. Mom wasn't happy about me doing drugs, and was in shock. My dad was trying to tell me to make the best of it. That it was an opening for me and I'm connected deeper with the universe and on a higher level than most people in the world.
Before I took acid I would smoke week all the time tho. I did is responsible. But it was just my thing. I had fun, made everything a blast. Now I got all my friends smoking and I can't bc I'm too scared. It's been about 7 months now and I still sleep with the lights on and put on tinkerbell every night to fall asleep. I'm getting better but I still have moments I freak out.
I just really wish I could smoke and have fun/feel happy like I used to. Why does it make me trip when I smoke weed? Will it ever stop? Will I ever be normal again?