Thanks for all the excellant replies. So, yes, as one of you said, i know it's a low dose. (Studies refferred to as an "ultra low" dose ) its just a companion dose. But its f^@*#n me up! For God's sake, I JUST WANT SOMETHING TO WORK without everything sucking the life out of me or Im gonna jump off a cliff with dynamite like Wile E. Coyote !!
OK so from here , its mostly a well structured rant , just warning you so you dont waste your time if your busy.
Im afraid to tell the doc to stop.Should i pretend to take it? Will he know? I dont want him to see me as just obstructing everything - i dont have a good track record for showing results, so im sure the letters " PIA " are on the top of my files in red. Heck, i had a morphine pump and made him take it out, y'know. I should have kept that stupid thing.
So, The more i think methadone, the more worried i get. Am i seeing the stigma part of it? Heck yeah. Am i afraid he's gonna yank the oxyco if i tell him methadone is helping Heck yeah.
IDK, Unless its a miracle drug, i dont want to lose the oxyco. I'll never get it back! Annnnd , im afraid its just gonna be;
A) just another drug that results in dependance. To make it worse, its evil highly synthesized gov't mandated chemistry like Tramadol. Just Crap.
B) another drug which you build tolerance to. And you know how that goes
C) another drug the pharmacist doesnt like filling.( Ive had problems, live in Fla, sux)
D) complicates xanax and zanaflex. Up til now everything played well together and i had a good handle on it.
E) a pathway for him to take away the oxyco. He slipped in a remark about titrating both if MD works.
Dammit, i need better pain control. And i couldnt care less about euphoria. After 7 yrs, there IS no euphoria for me anymore.
Im already in the ditch with depression/anxiety ,and now im totally de-railed
The extended half life is a reflection of my "crap" remark above. I dont like having this crap lurking in my body after its not doing anything. Had this with Tramadol, Lyrica, Gabapentin. These drugs were big time problems. Horrible.