Same here. I don't blow my money on anything really.
I get paid once a month & most of it usually goes toward rent & my bills.
And then I usually grab my essentials (body wash, toothpaste, cologne), stock up on 3 cartons of cigarettes, pay off any debt I owe people & then usually I'm broke by the time the middle of the month comes around, if that.
Tomorrow's my birthday & I'm pretty bummed about it. I have a shitty family & 2 of my family members only hit me up when they want something from me, but never return the favor. Nor do they even care to take the time or effort to do anything for me for my birthday either. Yet I'm sure they'll be back around & hitting me up when they need something again. But I'm not doing it anymore. I've helped them out numerous times now over the past year, for nothing in return. It's actually pretty disgusting to have family blatantly just taking advantage of me & then leaving me broke, sober & completely miserable on my birthday. I don't even wanna answer any of them tomorrow really.
For my birthday, I was given the shock of knowing that most of the people who are close to me & suppose to give a shit only talk to me when they want what I have. They could easily do things to help me out (don't wanna go into details here) and they just choose not to & lie about it. And I'm the youngest out of all of us. Pretty sad to keep lying & taking from your own little brother. I've had friends & completely random people do more to help me out lately than my own family cares to.
I need to go try & get my mind fixated on something else.
I hope you're doing alright Nurse Ratched!