I've been clean from Cannabis for about 6 months now, and I thought I'd share my story about why I had to quit. Maybe some of you can relate.
I started smoking when I was 13 years old. From the first time I got high (took several smoking sessions), I thought I loved weed. I thought it made me a better person. I ended up dropping out of high school and hitch hiking from Baltimore, MD, to LA to be closer to weed. I never got a job other than pizza delivery, and other jobs that paid cash, under the table daily.
By the time I was 19 years old, I was smoking anywhere from 5-7 grams of hash daily. I'd get an o for about $150, break off a .5 chunk, put it in my bong, and blaze through it in about 15 minutes. I had to smoke about every 30 minutes to an hour or I'd get extreme anxiety.
Eventually, I lost the glory, and had extreme insomnia, extreme paranoia, and lost about 50 pounds due to me not eating anything besides edibles for months straight.
It's funny how one night I had an epiphany. I realized all my friends are in their 20s and 30s. All of them are homeless, or live with their parents. None of them have any jobs that pay more than minimum wage. And all of them were crazy conspiracy theory following fools, who sat around and talked about "the man" all day. I realized that I was a stereotypical stoner as were all my friends, and it was time to quit.
It took me about 2 months for me to get any REM sleep back. I got my GED, and am in community college now. I'm paying for it with an african-american studies grant I got. I made amends with my parents, back on the east coast and am also working a full time, and part time job outside of college. I use opiates about once per week, but that is now the extent of my drug use.
I say this now, not to preach, but just as an anecdote to all young, heavy (multiple times daily) cannabis users. That if you want more for yourself, you need to put down the bong. I know that one day I am definitely going to go back to smoking, and hopefully not back to 5-7g of hash per day either. But I realized weed made me very content. TOO content with being a nobody. It made me think I was a good person, when any outsider would see me as a smelly, homeless, jobless, druggie. Many of my friends dont talk to me any more. They can't hang out with me without blazing every 30 minutes.
Many of my friends are convinced that weed is non addictive, and once its federally legal, their lives will be awesome. They do not realize that without even a GED, no education, and no work history, the only thing thats going to be better about their lives is easier access to and cheaper weed.\
I'd also like to hear stories from others who love cannabis, but decided to quit smoking willingly to better themselves. Hopefully one day I'll have a house, good job, and family, and will feel comfortable with smoking again.
I started smoking when I was 13 years old. From the first time I got high (took several smoking sessions), I thought I loved weed. I thought it made me a better person. I ended up dropping out of high school and hitch hiking from Baltimore, MD, to LA to be closer to weed. I never got a job other than pizza delivery, and other jobs that paid cash, under the table daily.
By the time I was 19 years old, I was smoking anywhere from 5-7 grams of hash daily. I'd get an o for about $150, break off a .5 chunk, put it in my bong, and blaze through it in about 15 minutes. I had to smoke about every 30 minutes to an hour or I'd get extreme anxiety.
Eventually, I lost the glory, and had extreme insomnia, extreme paranoia, and lost about 50 pounds due to me not eating anything besides edibles for months straight.
It's funny how one night I had an epiphany. I realized all my friends are in their 20s and 30s. All of them are homeless, or live with their parents. None of them have any jobs that pay more than minimum wage. And all of them were crazy conspiracy theory following fools, who sat around and talked about "the man" all day. I realized that I was a stereotypical stoner as were all my friends, and it was time to quit.
It took me about 2 months for me to get any REM sleep back. I got my GED, and am in community college now. I'm paying for it with an african-american studies grant I got. I made amends with my parents, back on the east coast and am also working a full time, and part time job outside of college. I use opiates about once per week, but that is now the extent of my drug use.
I say this now, not to preach, but just as an anecdote to all young, heavy (multiple times daily) cannabis users. That if you want more for yourself, you need to put down the bong. I know that one day I am definitely going to go back to smoking, and hopefully not back to 5-7g of hash per day either. But I realized weed made me very content. TOO content with being a nobody. It made me think I was a good person, when any outsider would see me as a smelly, homeless, jobless, druggie. Many of my friends dont talk to me any more. They can't hang out with me without blazing every 30 minutes.
Many of my friends are convinced that weed is non addictive, and once its federally legal, their lives will be awesome. They do not realize that without even a GED, no education, and no work history, the only thing thats going to be better about their lives is easier access to and cheaper weed.\
I'd also like to hear stories from others who love cannabis, but decided to quit smoking willingly to better themselves. Hopefully one day I'll have a house, good job, and family, and will feel comfortable with smoking again.