deadendgame
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 23, 2014
- Messages
- 356
I busted my ass off for so many years in school. I did so many things for others. It's unfortunate where I am now, but I can't help it. I got schizophrenia at an early age and it's not that. I secretly have OCD as well, and it takes roughly 2-3 hours out of my day just obsessing about things. I sometimes perform compulsions as well. I think my neighbors caught on because every time because I know they can see me check my car doors five to ten times every time. I'm really tired. Goddam it! I feel like even though I did so much, there is no reward or even acknowledgment for what I did, but instead hatred from others for what I'm not doing right now. Well, I'm doing the best I can. I work as a security guard standing at a store all day and still it's not enough to make ends meet. I am no longer afraid of dying anymore. I'm more afraid of living longer than I expect