guiltyinink
Greenlighter
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- Nov 29, 2023
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I’m struggling to find a doctor that understands that I’ve always lived with anxiety and never abused my Klonopin, didn’t even take it daily. I’ve been able to get Klonopin even while using methamphetmine (so long as I didn’t get drug tested) but as soon as I wanted help for my meth use, everything gets taken away as if I’m going to get addicted to what I’ve legally been prescribed. So I went and detoxed on my own, I don’t like the 12 step programs because my use was not a moral failing, like they seem to treat it (not that I don’t believe it can’t work for some people, it’s just not for me) I just needed it for motivation and energy. Benzo’s will not and never did give me energy, not in the same way. It helped me cope through anxiety, made my body stop trying to jump out of my skin… But never made me want to “take on the day” without sleep. I don’t get why cutting out the things that work, just because they happen to be addictive to others, means I have to be stereotypically shoved into that box… and that box makes no sense to me. Those two drugs do opposite things. Completely opposite. I’m angry that I’m proud of my new sobriety and that the doctors are making it even harder to stay “sober” because I wouldn’t technically be sober? If I went to the bar for the legal alcohol, I wouldn’t be sober than either, but I don’t like alcohol.. Can someone help me understand this logic, or help me with what I would have to do or say or where to find a doctor that has flexible working cognition? Because this is illogical to me, personally… I do have a record of never abusing my benzo prescription.
(If this is the wrong place to post this I’m very sorry, I’m new… but if I didn't post now, my pissed’offness might fade and I’d lose the energy I had from that.) Thanks for your time
(If this is the wrong place to post this I’m very sorry, I’m new… but if I didn't post now, my pissed’offness might fade and I’d lose the energy I had from that.) Thanks for your time