Nope, unfortunately one absence too many combined with misunderstanding the precise terms of my final warning means that im out of work again. I can honestly say that a part of me is fucking glad to be out of there, as parts of the job were really beginning to get me down. In particular that managerial style of eagerly waiting for you to fuck something up so that they could take you to task over it. I definitely bought this one on myself, and have no one but myself to blame, i was given chance after chance after chance, even rules that were never bent were bent for me, but i still threw it all away.
I obviously miss the money, and the discipline of having to get up in the mornings was really helping me make good progress with my benzo taper. My self esteem was shattered first time i got layed off, but this time its just completely de-motivated me as I had it coming fair and square; the HR guy could not not have tried any harder to help me try and keep the job, it seems to me that my line manager was keen to get shot of me but the HR guy wanted to keep me on..
I'm gonna use the rest of April to quit kratom, and watch the snooker world championships. This seems to have become an annual ritual for me to quit kratom whilst the snooker world championships are on, and as long as Ronnie remains in the tournament, and progresses further into the tournament I'll always have something to look forward to. If he gets knocked out in the first round (that very rarely happens) i will not know what to do with myself and my recovery plans. I guess I'll just have to bring my self indulgence to a premature end and start looking for another job all over again a little sooner than planned.