Zon
Bluelighter
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- Jul 13, 2012
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I've been taking a few pills per year for the last 6 or 7 years, mostly with my girlfriend. Although I must say it is never quite the same as the early years. Not just the physical effect, in fact I don't think it "feels" that different from the 3rd time I ever took to the 30th time, but I feel like I am different.
I used to be super emotional, loving, touchy-feely, all those things. Got up to some pretty crazy stuff back in those first few years, often ended up in a naked cuddle puddle or something alike. It was awesome These days though I just feel a lot less confident when rolling, and a lot less desire to tell people all my secrets and bond with them. I still have some desire to be social, but at the same time also feel a bit shy and nervous to start up a conversation with someone I don't/barely know. My girlfriend also seems less empathetic than before. She was never as touchy as me and always preferred dancing alone to the music but still we would have some nice bonding moments with each other and our friends, but lately she becomes completely anti social, sticks her hood up and just dances alone in a dark corner.
One thing I have noticed is that the very few times (twice) we had pure mdma we felt much more empathy, could just be pure coincidence or is there some connection there?
I don't think we have a high tolerance, I always wait months between each roll and have been higher recently than ever before, but still not felt the love.
So how can we increase/bring back this empathy that we have lost? Is it the chemicals that are affecting us differently, or maybe we are the ones changing as people?
Would love to hear the opinions of the people on here.
I used to be super emotional, loving, touchy-feely, all those things. Got up to some pretty crazy stuff back in those first few years, often ended up in a naked cuddle puddle or something alike. It was awesome These days though I just feel a lot less confident when rolling, and a lot less desire to tell people all my secrets and bond with them. I still have some desire to be social, but at the same time also feel a bit shy and nervous to start up a conversation with someone I don't/barely know. My girlfriend also seems less empathetic than before. She was never as touchy as me and always preferred dancing alone to the music but still we would have some nice bonding moments with each other and our friends, but lately she becomes completely anti social, sticks her hood up and just dances alone in a dark corner.
One thing I have noticed is that the very few times (twice) we had pure mdma we felt much more empathy, could just be pure coincidence or is there some connection there?
I don't think we have a high tolerance, I always wait months between each roll and have been higher recently than ever before, but still not felt the love.
So how can we increase/bring back this empathy that we have lost? Is it the chemicals that are affecting us differently, or maybe we are the ones changing as people?
Would love to hear the opinions of the people on here.