PillyMuncher
Greenlighter
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- Jun 22, 2017
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I've been mucking about with pills for over 30 years. As a rebellious teen, a respectable father and businessman, and a retired pill head with too much time on his hands and access to a plethora of (correctly) prescribed medication... some "useful, and some not so.
My issue is this... I'm very keen on opiates, and I've had access to a few different types on various occasions over the years. But I've never ever had any euphoric feeling from them.... Never felt wrapped in a warm blanket or anything of the sort?
With enough of a space between using, Codeine gives me a mild rush at the onset, then I'm just a bit friendly, a bit buzzed.
Codeine seems the best but it's still awful.
Dihydrocodeine is like speed... I'm off my fucking head.
Oxycodone/Contin pretty much the same as DHC
Fentanyl is a permanent comedown
Buprenorphine same as fentanyl
Morphine just feel horrible - no pleasure in it.
Tapentadol - nothing really
Tramadol - quite pleasant mild buzz, happy
Poppy seed tea
I've tried pepper, grapefruit, omeprazole, Indian tonic water, promethazine and diazepam as "potentiators" lol...
But really - I'd be better off drinking a can of cheap lager for all I get from them.
I have 3 theories as to why:
About 15 years ago I discovered ecstasy for 2 years I was at it every weekend 2 - 3 nights. Anywhere between 15 - 20 pills on a normal weekend, although it sometimes got way messier - the most was just over 50. Stupid really as I found that more than 5 wasn't really good any more.
But it was SO GOOD. I WAS SO SO. HAPPY.
My jaw would be sore from smiling. Every night was the best night of my life... but I really MEANT it.
Sadly I had to hit it on the head. But here I am today, wondering if I have used all my "happy" up? Are we blessed with a set amount and I've Greeded mine all up! (oh I know it's synapses growing new Pathways or something).
The next issue is the medication I am on that might be cocking things up:
Venlafaxine (Effexor)
Topiramate (Topamax)
Gabapentin
Loperamide... which I usually have in my system to fend off comedown from whatever I've been on.
I have stopped all of these (only for a day or two) to see if it made any improvement, but
no joy. I did this too with ecstasy recently but there was no joy in it.
And thirdly, I worry that I don't metabolise opiates properly. I read reports of people taking x - dose of x - med and being chilled and europhic. I have to take 4 times the dose, it takes 3 times as long to hit me, then I am running around like a burst hose doing all the housework. Something seems amiss.
I would really appreciate any rational thoughts.
Oh and poppy seed tea. I used that to get me off the Buprenorphine.
Then I cold turkeyed the tea...
The horror from hell living nightmare evil living death!
Don't do it kids!
My issue is this... I'm very keen on opiates, and I've had access to a few different types on various occasions over the years. But I've never ever had any euphoric feeling from them.... Never felt wrapped in a warm blanket or anything of the sort?
With enough of a space between using, Codeine gives me a mild rush at the onset, then I'm just a bit friendly, a bit buzzed.
Codeine seems the best but it's still awful.
Dihydrocodeine is like speed... I'm off my fucking head.
Oxycodone/Contin pretty much the same as DHC
Fentanyl is a permanent comedown
Buprenorphine same as fentanyl
Morphine just feel horrible - no pleasure in it.
Tapentadol - nothing really
Tramadol - quite pleasant mild buzz, happy
Poppy seed tea
I've tried pepper, grapefruit, omeprazole, Indian tonic water, promethazine and diazepam as "potentiators" lol...
But really - I'd be better off drinking a can of cheap lager for all I get from them.
I have 3 theories as to why:
About 15 years ago I discovered ecstasy for 2 years I was at it every weekend 2 - 3 nights. Anywhere between 15 - 20 pills on a normal weekend, although it sometimes got way messier - the most was just over 50. Stupid really as I found that more than 5 wasn't really good any more.
But it was SO GOOD. I WAS SO SO. HAPPY.
My jaw would be sore from smiling. Every night was the best night of my life... but I really MEANT it.
Sadly I had to hit it on the head. But here I am today, wondering if I have used all my "happy" up? Are we blessed with a set amount and I've Greeded mine all up! (oh I know it's synapses growing new Pathways or something).
The next issue is the medication I am on that might be cocking things up:
Venlafaxine (Effexor)
Topiramate (Topamax)
Gabapentin
Loperamide... which I usually have in my system to fend off comedown from whatever I've been on.
I have stopped all of these (only for a day or two) to see if it made any improvement, but
no joy. I did this too with ecstasy recently but there was no joy in it.
And thirdly, I worry that I don't metabolise opiates properly. I read reports of people taking x - dose of x - med and being chilled and europhic. I have to take 4 times the dose, it takes 3 times as long to hit me, then I am running around like a burst hose doing all the housework. Something seems amiss.
I would really appreciate any rational thoughts.
Oh and poppy seed tea. I used that to get me off the Buprenorphine.
Then I cold turkeyed the tea...
The horror from hell living nightmare evil living death!
Don't do it kids!