Hey,
We'd really like to keep you around. I'd recommend checking into your nearest hospital and telling them that you're seriously thinking about hurting yourself.
If you're in the United States, you can call the suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255 at any time of the day, at any day of the week, free of any cost. They are trained specialists. They will work with you.
If you check out these subforums i linked to below, people can offer you advice that will likely make you want to keep on going. Also, feel free to private message any of the moderators (including myself).
Most of us have hard times in our lives. Many of us persevere because we have people whom love us, and we love them back. I'd encourage you to recall the good times, and think of them through the perspective of re-living them, even having even better days than ever, ahead.
What we can't do is tell you how to harm yourself or take drugs.
If you've been put on Prozac for depression, it can take several weeks to start working. Please allow it some time to work if nothing else
http://bluelight.org/vb/forums/270-Mental-Health
http://bluelight.org/vb/forums/269-Sober-Living
http://bluelight.org/vb/forums/47-The-Dark-Side
I'm going to keep this open for now (someone else might close it, however), just to make sure you're all right. We all here at bluelight want you to be safe and mentally well!
