splodge2001
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On NYE I took MDMA for the first time in 20 years, I'm 40. I thought it would be fun. Just like the old days. My life has been a living hell ever since and no one can tell me what happened.
I used my little finger (un-licked) to dip into a bag of MDMA and caught a little powder in the nail of my finger. I waited - maybe for an hour and nothing happened, so I went back, another finger nail full - nothing again. So I went back a third time and did the same thing. I have no idea how much I could have taken in total but I don't have long finger nails. I was fine for about two to three hours after the last dose. I wasn't gurning or super "out of it". The effects were mild. I felt mildly warm and friendly. I was dancing but not over heating.
I went home and was ok. I went to the bathroom - I noticed it was harder to urinate but not impossible. Then I got into bed and lay on my left side to go to sleep. Suddenly I felt my heart beating very fast. It was 2.30am and 2.5 hours after the last dose of MDMA. My heart seemed out of control. I tried to breath deeply but it didn't help. I got up. I wasn't hot. I did not have myclonus. I got into the bath to see if it would relax me. I kept feeling waves coming up through my body which would accelerate my heart. I found it hard to breathe, especially at the peaks of these waves. My heart felt like it was in a tight box. I felt pressure in my body. I thought my blood pressure must have been very high. I was very scared but did not call an ambulance because I was too ashamed. I have two kids and felt embarrassed. I decided to "ride it out".
I'm not sure how long I stayed in the bath but I have a heart rate monitor so I thought I should check what was going on. I got out of the bath and measured my heart rate and BP. It was 135bpm and 150/90. I took this measurement when I had passed the peak. It took about 2 1/2hrs in total for my heart rate to come back down to normal.
I put the experience down to the drugs and forgot about it until...
I had the same experience a week later whilst watching TV. No more drugs had been taken since NYE. Suddenly my heart rate shot up and kept getting faster. This time I called an ambulance. My breathing got tricky as my heart rate went up. I reached 130 bpm. I had an ECG in the ambulance and was told that I was in normal sinus rhythm and was having a panic attack.
Then it happen a week after that. Same thing - writing an email and suddenly my heart rate leaps and keeps getting faster. Hospital again. Normal sinus rhythm and they prescribed beta blockers. I had a further episode of tachycardia a couple of weeks later and the dose of beta blockers was increased.
I had made peace with the symptoms one evening but the following morning I woke up with PVC (Ventricular Ectopic Beats/palpitations) for the first time in my life. I went straight to A&E but my heart had restored to normal rhythm.
Since then I've had several episodes of palpitations (ectopic beats) and a couple of short bouts of tachycardia. I became extremely anxious after the 3rd episode of tachycardia and had to start taking diazepam and antidepressants. Unfortunately, the antidepressants caused insomnia so I had to stop taking them.
The ectopics are becoming more frequent and lasting longer. I've had them for 3 days in a row (6-10 per minute).
I'm really struggling to deal with it all. I went on holiday and was really stressed to be away from home. My life has become a nightmare.
I've had a normal echocardiogram and normal 24/48hr ECG. The ECG picked up a few Supraventricular ectopics and Ventricular Ectopics both singles and couplets.
I really feel like I need to understand what happened on NYE and subsequently. I've read that on average your heart beat speeds up by 30bpm. Mine went up by more than 60bpm. It wasn't a normal reaction to MDMA.
Was just reading about Coronary Spasms and MDMA. Could it have been that? The fast heart rate lasted around 2 1/2 hours though and went down gradually. Is it more likely to be Panic? I'm in London I've seen a cardiologist but no one seems to be able to tell me anything about the drug's role in this. Can anyone recommend a doctor with knowledge?
Thanks
I used my little finger (un-licked) to dip into a bag of MDMA and caught a little powder in the nail of my finger. I waited - maybe for an hour and nothing happened, so I went back, another finger nail full - nothing again. So I went back a third time and did the same thing. I have no idea how much I could have taken in total but I don't have long finger nails. I was fine for about two to three hours after the last dose. I wasn't gurning or super "out of it". The effects were mild. I felt mildly warm and friendly. I was dancing but not over heating.
I went home and was ok. I went to the bathroom - I noticed it was harder to urinate but not impossible. Then I got into bed and lay on my left side to go to sleep. Suddenly I felt my heart beating very fast. It was 2.30am and 2.5 hours after the last dose of MDMA. My heart seemed out of control. I tried to breath deeply but it didn't help. I got up. I wasn't hot. I did not have myclonus. I got into the bath to see if it would relax me. I kept feeling waves coming up through my body which would accelerate my heart. I found it hard to breathe, especially at the peaks of these waves. My heart felt like it was in a tight box. I felt pressure in my body. I thought my blood pressure must have been very high. I was very scared but did not call an ambulance because I was too ashamed. I have two kids and felt embarrassed. I decided to "ride it out".
I'm not sure how long I stayed in the bath but I have a heart rate monitor so I thought I should check what was going on. I got out of the bath and measured my heart rate and BP. It was 135bpm and 150/90. I took this measurement when I had passed the peak. It took about 2 1/2hrs in total for my heart rate to come back down to normal.
I put the experience down to the drugs and forgot about it until...
I had the same experience a week later whilst watching TV. No more drugs had been taken since NYE. Suddenly my heart rate shot up and kept getting faster. This time I called an ambulance. My breathing got tricky as my heart rate went up. I reached 130 bpm. I had an ECG in the ambulance and was told that I was in normal sinus rhythm and was having a panic attack.
Then it happen a week after that. Same thing - writing an email and suddenly my heart rate leaps and keeps getting faster. Hospital again. Normal sinus rhythm and they prescribed beta blockers. I had a further episode of tachycardia a couple of weeks later and the dose of beta blockers was increased.
I had made peace with the symptoms one evening but the following morning I woke up with PVC (Ventricular Ectopic Beats/palpitations) for the first time in my life. I went straight to A&E but my heart had restored to normal rhythm.
Since then I've had several episodes of palpitations (ectopic beats) and a couple of short bouts of tachycardia. I became extremely anxious after the 3rd episode of tachycardia and had to start taking diazepam and antidepressants. Unfortunately, the antidepressants caused insomnia so I had to stop taking them.
The ectopics are becoming more frequent and lasting longer. I've had them for 3 days in a row (6-10 per minute).
I'm really struggling to deal with it all. I went on holiday and was really stressed to be away from home. My life has become a nightmare.
I've had a normal echocardiogram and normal 24/48hr ECG. The ECG picked up a few Supraventricular ectopics and Ventricular Ectopics both singles and couplets.
I really feel like I need to understand what happened on NYE and subsequently. I've read that on average your heart beat speeds up by 30bpm. Mine went up by more than 60bpm. It wasn't a normal reaction to MDMA.
Was just reading about Coronary Spasms and MDMA. Could it have been that? The fast heart rate lasted around 2 1/2 hours though and went down gradually. Is it more likely to be Panic? I'm in London I've seen a cardiologist but no one seems to be able to tell me anything about the drug's role in this. Can anyone recommend a doctor with knowledge?
Thanks