effects?
I feel so fucken trapped when I am in social situations these days. I used to be sociable years ago but I just feel so far down in a pit when talking (or not talking as it goes now) to people I feel like I am dying inside and people lose interest in me before I can think of anything to say.
I despise it. It is like being locked in a cage of my mind watching opportunities evapourate in front of me.
I so long for the boundless energy and optimism of a dopamine buzz but know not to take strong ones now due to their bad crashes and side effects.
I fucking hate cofee and never found it really useful.
I also cant stand alcohol. Pissing like crazy and drying you out like a prune. -Very interested in other gabaergics because the alcohol disinhibition was very good and I hear other gabaergics are even better- but I didn't want to mess with them for the addiction risk.
Kratom is helpful to make me hate myself a little less and numb the pain and take my mind off my pathetic failure however I don't find it makes me more sociable really.
I have been looking into phenylpiracetam which sounds like it might be what I am after as a modest DRI without noticable side effects.
I have avoided the 'anti depressant train' as I do not like the idea of taking something every day. I need something that gives me a kick start that's all because once the engines are running I am fine but the engines are so cold from lack of use they never get started and just get more and more ceased.
I feel like my life is just draining away in front of me and it takes such a gargantuum effort to do social things due to my pessimism about the outcome.
I feel so fucken trapped when I am in social situations these days. I used to be sociable years ago but I just feel so far down in a pit when talking (or not talking as it goes now) to people I feel like I am dying inside and people lose interest in me before I can think of anything to say.
I despise it. It is like being locked in a cage of my mind watching opportunities evapourate in front of me.
I so long for the boundless energy and optimism of a dopamine buzz but know not to take strong ones now due to their bad crashes and side effects.
I fucking hate cofee and never found it really useful.
I also cant stand alcohol. Pissing like crazy and drying you out like a prune. -Very interested in other gabaergics because the alcohol disinhibition was very good and I hear other gabaergics are even better- but I didn't want to mess with them for the addiction risk.
Kratom is helpful to make me hate myself a little less and numb the pain and take my mind off my pathetic failure however I don't find it makes me more sociable really.
I have been looking into phenylpiracetam which sounds like it might be what I am after as a modest DRI without noticable side effects.
I have avoided the 'anti depressant train' as I do not like the idea of taking something every day. I need something that gives me a kick start that's all because once the engines are running I am fine but the engines are so cold from lack of use they never get started and just get more and more ceased.
I feel like my life is just draining away in front of me and it takes such a gargantuum effort to do social things due to my pessimism about the outcome.