I have to say when I was on the oxy, Vic's.. I was an energizing bunny and smart cookie all wrapped in a nice box. got a big bonus , raise, promotion. even started my own side business. I worked like Donald trump. smart. confident . tough. zero social anxiety. I would have walked to Obama and spoke equally if I bumped into him. zero fear. but it all wasn't real. u grow more and more tolerance each day . leading to higher doses of pills. till u can't get no more . at my peak I took 8 of 10mg of vics and didn't feel a thing. leading to snorting morphine and that's what got me addicted and in trouble . no I can't get off opiates at all . heard ur life can be in danger too when u quit. so scared of the pst withdrawal now. even with all these drama I shared.. I'd still jump to pop a V , P or snort a D if I had one in front of me. the addiction is what's real. they take over. for a year already , all I thought about was how to get my next high. now I have no access to any pills. I think of how to make my pst so I Won't w/d. I'm not upping my dosages as fast as I did with the pills but I'm still increasing it as my tolerance is so strong. sigh.. I just don't know what to do. I wish someone can hook me up with connections to V or P and D. or someone teach me how to remove the nasty jittery thebaine from my pst (poppy seed tea) . pls don't go down my path. I'm already to late. but I wish I can stop others from going down my path. it's gonna feel like a great dream and high but it's not real. you'll actually wake up and realize ur living in a real nightmare