AddictRecon
Bluelighter
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- Jul 13, 2017
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Jesus Christ.
I dont know much about modern Christianity, but I know that in my desperate condition to find the willpower to overcome my addiction, the first most noticeable strength and willpower I had came after falling to me knees and pleading with God, the very God I did not believe existed, yet there I was, I dont even know what came out of my own mouth when this happened, but I know one thing, crying out to Jesus Christ, someone who I never thought existed elicited some sort of change i cannot fully explain.
For that I will be forever grateful, and the joy of serving in His will has completely changed my life forever. I simply cannot go back to not having the absolute best joy Ive ever known.
Please dont throw out challenges about the ability to prove God, or test me as if Im some great Christian, Im simply not, I dont know what happened, I was desperate, I cried out and something in me changed that I cannot explain.
Im told by 'churchy type Christians' that what happened to me was pretty normal, and alot of them reached out to share the same thing. Im super critical of Christianity, I actually started reading the bible, and if the bible is true, the modern Church is what Christ Himself taught against.
I feel alone as a follower of Christ, truly alone. But having Him in my corner has defeated every trial Ive been through since. I dont care about the arguments between believers and non believers, I dont have the energy, this is an experience unique to my perspective, I make no promises for anyone else, but something happened to me that I was told was impossible, and from the best of what I can gather, God Himself has put His hand on me and opened my mind to things I never in a million years could have understood on my own.
If you agree, great, if you disagree great, this is simply a subjective review of something that happened in my life, something that changed me forever. The earth shattering, life altering things that have happened, the clarity Ive had, the ability to see myself for what I had become, I attribute to something to do with God directly intervening in my life, and no one can take that away from me.
I will serve Christ until the day I die, I simply cannot explain this joy unless you are currently experiencing what I am experiencing, its incomprehensible, even to me.
I love you all, all of you, so very much, this happened to me and I felt conviction to share it
I dont know much about modern Christianity, but I know that in my desperate condition to find the willpower to overcome my addiction, the first most noticeable strength and willpower I had came after falling to me knees and pleading with God, the very God I did not believe existed, yet there I was, I dont even know what came out of my own mouth when this happened, but I know one thing, crying out to Jesus Christ, someone who I never thought existed elicited some sort of change i cannot fully explain.
For that I will be forever grateful, and the joy of serving in His will has completely changed my life forever. I simply cannot go back to not having the absolute best joy Ive ever known.
Please dont throw out challenges about the ability to prove God, or test me as if Im some great Christian, Im simply not, I dont know what happened, I was desperate, I cried out and something in me changed that I cannot explain.
Im told by 'churchy type Christians' that what happened to me was pretty normal, and alot of them reached out to share the same thing. Im super critical of Christianity, I actually started reading the bible, and if the bible is true, the modern Church is what Christ Himself taught against.
I feel alone as a follower of Christ, truly alone. But having Him in my corner has defeated every trial Ive been through since. I dont care about the arguments between believers and non believers, I dont have the energy, this is an experience unique to my perspective, I make no promises for anyone else, but something happened to me that I was told was impossible, and from the best of what I can gather, God Himself has put His hand on me and opened my mind to things I never in a million years could have understood on my own.
If you agree, great, if you disagree great, this is simply a subjective review of something that happened in my life, something that changed me forever. The earth shattering, life altering things that have happened, the clarity Ive had, the ability to see myself for what I had become, I attribute to something to do with God directly intervening in my life, and no one can take that away from me.
I will serve Christ until the day I die, I simply cannot explain this joy unless you are currently experiencing what I am experiencing, its incomprehensible, even to me.
I love you all, all of you, so very much, this happened to me and I felt conviction to share it