Oh fuck it, that bitter person who wrote my earlier post is only the person I want to be, the person who will never be hurt again. The truth is, I can't help but hold doors open for people, tap the lady on her shoulder when she drops her wallet or leaves her sunglasses behind to return them to her, or always say please and thank you, even at McDonalds.
Let it be known, though, that I do these things because I want to do them, not because I expect anything in return, or even for people to do the same for me, but just because in my mind, what needs to be done gets done, and I like things being done right. I am working on caring less and less about those I don't know, however. They have hurt me so many more times than they have helped me, so at this point, it is in my best interest to keep away.
As for many people having the same viewpoint, I doubt it, especially looking at this thread, I seem to be in the minority. Most people are so quick to help the stranger in need, especially those religious types who beat their wives and yell at their kids, but display their righteousness in public by holding open doors and acting all sweet and kind.
As for the happiness of others bringing happiness to me... I have never experienced this phenonmenon. I have done many things that should make other people happy, yet it always leaves me not only unfulfilled, but feeling robbed and taken advantage of.
That's enough for today...