iridescentblack
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 12, 2015
- Messages
- 1,433
I read through a book on meditation recently where the author mentioned delusions a few times, and though he's not a doctor, he seemed to have what I'll call a fair understanding of delusions.
He gave a somewhat anecdotal example of "hearing a noise and then following it up with creating a persistent monologue that either seeks to explain or reason the cause of the noise, where it came from, and what it has to do with anything". I guess the point of some of his writings on the particular topic was - to paint another example - that monks who meditate in public places can seemingly ignore everything going on around them. I guess in a way this begs the question: is the latter example similar to ignoring your problems and therefore not addressing them, or are this question and it's contrast mutually exclusive?
I think I may even have a discussion with my doctor about delusions and what they are. I'm hoping to hear it from him, rather than well-rehearsed rehashing of college material.
When I was first told about delusions by doctors, in the past, they said I was grandiose. I honestly still don't get this one. How is it that I'm forced to pay a doctor and sit in an office with him while he bullies me like this? What the hell are delusions? Delusions of grandeur seems to suggest that I either profess that I'm some kind of magical saint that has incarnated and has a specific duty or that I possess a magical skill that other people can't perform. Neither of these things had I ever claimed to doctors and yet somehow they felt the need to bully me nonetheless.
I've gone over a few sites in order to try and understand what the hell they're talking about and how it pertains to something that was never mentioned or brought up, let alone discussed in great detail.
Are delusions a trait that only doctors can pick up and somehow my body language is a factor in what they're determining? I mean, I've read extensively about the mind power of bullying. I even have stockholm syndrome from it. If anything, I think I can draw a direct correlation between Doctor X telling me I was grandiose, fast forward to about 1-2 years of treatment following release from a hospital and under treatment of doctor Y: he starts to convince me that I have delusions of grandeur and what they look like and then about 2-3 years into treatment - doctor Z is confirming this as well.
How the fuck is this a science?!
He gave a somewhat anecdotal example of "hearing a noise and then following it up with creating a persistent monologue that either seeks to explain or reason the cause of the noise, where it came from, and what it has to do with anything". I guess the point of some of his writings on the particular topic was - to paint another example - that monks who meditate in public places can seemingly ignore everything going on around them. I guess in a way this begs the question: is the latter example similar to ignoring your problems and therefore not addressing them, or are this question and it's contrast mutually exclusive?
I think I may even have a discussion with my doctor about delusions and what they are. I'm hoping to hear it from him, rather than well-rehearsed rehashing of college material.
When I was first told about delusions by doctors, in the past, they said I was grandiose. I honestly still don't get this one. How is it that I'm forced to pay a doctor and sit in an office with him while he bullies me like this? What the hell are delusions? Delusions of grandeur seems to suggest that I either profess that I'm some kind of magical saint that has incarnated and has a specific duty or that I possess a magical skill that other people can't perform. Neither of these things had I ever claimed to doctors and yet somehow they felt the need to bully me nonetheless.
I've gone over a few sites in order to try and understand what the hell they're talking about and how it pertains to something that was never mentioned or brought up, let alone discussed in great detail.
Are delusions a trait that only doctors can pick up and somehow my body language is a factor in what they're determining? I mean, I've read extensively about the mind power of bullying. I even have stockholm syndrome from it. If anything, I think I can draw a direct correlation between Doctor X telling me I was grandiose, fast forward to about 1-2 years of treatment following release from a hospital and under treatment of doctor Y: he starts to convince me that I have delusions of grandeur and what they look like and then about 2-3 years into treatment - doctor Z is confirming this as well.
How the fuck is this a science?!