LucidSDreamr
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There is one from before. Can't type that all again. Mods should link it to this one as a part 2...pleaseThere was an open one before...
There is one from before. Can't type that all again. Mods should link it to this one as a part 2...pleaseThere was an open one before...
I have drain bamage from excessive benzo abuse
shiii you might have brain damage from all the pharmaceuticals you took too half the time they don’t even know exactly what those drugs do I’ve heard many horror stories of people who took pharmaceuticals.This isn’t a complete list as I didn’t feel like typing out all of the psych meds that I’ve been prescribed over the years (there have been so many. Just assume that if it exists, I’ve taken it. Not Invega, which sounds like a nightmare, but everything else)
Marijuana
LSD
MDMA and almost all the MDxx drugs, MDEA, MDA, etc
Nitrous (whippets)
Nicotine
Alcohol
Shrooms
DXM
Xanax
Klonopin
Valium
Etizolam
Vicodin
Codeine
Tramadol
Morphine
Poppy pods
Poppy seed tea
Kratom
Heroin
Percocet
Oxy
Methadone
Suboxone
Crack
Cocaine
Adderal
Ritalin
Meth
Concerta
Soma
Flexeril
Ketamine
Ambien
2 C-B
3-MMC
6-APB
Ephedrine
Kava
Opium
Hash
Butalbital
Phenibut
Morning Glory seeds
Gabapentin
Pregabalin
Probably there’s some more RCs I’m forgetting as well. I have drain bamage from excessive benzo abuse in my misspent youth
Those anti psychotic injections are nasty it’s like brain poison, how long ago did you take haldol injections are you still on them? If not do you feel back to your normal self after coming off the injections.drugs i've taken for fun or to stop boredom, recreationally:
alcohol
caffeine
nicotine
nitrous oxide
dramamine
dxm
marijuana
kilonopin and ativan
mushrooms
HBWR seeds and morning glories (lsa)
LSD eth-lad al-lad 1p-lsd ald-52
mda
2-ci
5meo-amt
salvia
5meo-dmt
adderal and ritalin
oxycontin vicodin codeine
supposedly opium or tar, my friend extracted some brown powder out of it, wasn't impressive, maybe fake
coke
i kind of wish my list was a little longer. i feel like there are some research chemicals i'd like to try and maybe some normal DMT, not 5meo, just so i could talk about it... but for the most part i feel really lucky for all of the drugs that i got to try and am pretty sure i have a lot of experience tripping. i can't imagine any of the research chemicals being that different from the trips i've had. it reminds me that there should be a thread "do you feel like you've experienced everything". i'd have to respond with "probably". i'm still remembering some experiences or trips that i had from 5meo-amt that i just didn't remember right away because the trip was so long with so many different experiences in one trip, that was almost twenty years ago now.
i also find myself wondering if meth is much better than a large dose of adderal. not something that really matters to me whether or not i got to try it, i guess. but still would've been cool to try in my days where i was healthier...
drugs that i didn't want from doctors:
risperdal
quietapine (prescribed with something else i forget what it was)
haldol injections
i took lexapro or some other anti-depressant for a week when i was like fifteen. it wasn't doing anything except for lack of sex drive so i tried snorting it and it burnt my nose so bad. lol
I didn't need antipsychotics until after i took them then they got me hooked on them by forcing me with injections. I took shrooms on the injection. It fucked me up mentally all really bad. I was already fucked up mentally in one way or another. But this really caused so much anxiety in my life. I've since taken naltrexone and naltrexone mixed with weed, ketamine or E, or even LSD or shrooms caused my anxiety to go back to normal. It's like some sort of self-medication. Anti-psychotics do have a benefit i would say for certain individuals. They've helped me in the long term. But I've definitely struggled because of them too. Locking you up in a psych ward is no good either. Ketamine is the only drug I've done lately aside from weed that ill do now. I finally got a good connect but its like 80 min drive away so im only gonna go once a month for a g or 2. I dont think its good to do more than that anymore.Those anti psychotic injections are nasty it’s like brain poison, how long ago did you take haldol injections are you still on them? If not do you feel back to your normal self after coming off the injections.
ya igy not all anti psychotics are bad but the injections are pretty bad I took 2 shots of invega sustenna and had pretty bad side effects but now I’m 6 months off and I can get high without anxiety or rebound psychosis.I didn't need antipsychotics until after i took them then they got me hooked on them by forcing me with injections. I took shrooms on the injection. It fucked me up mentally all really bad. I was already fucked up mentally in one way or another. But this really caused so much anxiety in my life. I've since taken naltrexone and naltrexone mixed with weed, ketamine or E, or even LSD or shrooms caused my anxiety to go back to normal. It's like some sort of self-medication. Anti-psychotics do have a benefit i would say for certain individuals. They've helped me in the long term. But I've definitely struggled because of them too. Locking you up in a psych ward is no good either. Ketamine is the only drug I've done lately aside from weed that ill do now. I finally got a good connect but its like 80 min drive away so im only gonna go once a month for a g or 2. I dont think its good to do more than that anymore.
i've been on them since like 2019, maybe even earlier. i was on like 100mgs or however it is weighed, not sure if it's mg's... after a few months of being on the injections they started weening me off of them, i've been on 30mgs since like 2020 or so. i get one injection every 28 days... the only real bad part about haldol for me is the sexual side effects. if it weren't for that i wouldn't notice. when i was on a lot of haldol, i couldn't orgasm at all. but as they started weening me off, it got better. with the dose i'm on now i can ejaculate one good normal feeling orgasm a day and then if i try to jerk off again it's like barely any semen and not very euphoric. so i just stick to jerking off once a day. lol. there's been times not on meds when i jerked off less than that so it's not a problem to me... for me though, haldol did nothing to stop my getting high on weed. i haven't tried any real psychedlics, but the anti-psychotics do nothing to stop my weed buzz, i still get acid flash backs from smoking weed and even when i'm not smoking weed... even on the higher doses of haldol, it didn't get rid of my auditory hallucinations. so i don't know. risperdal and quietapine kind of decreased my auditory hallucinations a bit, but still didn't stop them. my schizophrenia is pretty strong. i'm afraid to slip up again though and have them try other meds on me. i prefer to have schizophrenia. i don't know how i'd live with out it at this point actually.Those anti psychotic injections are nasty it’s like brain poison, how long ago did you take haldol injections are you still on them? If not do you feel back to your normal self after coming off the injections.
Shit man I’d hold it against them fuck being on meds if I don’t wana be on meds I’m gonna take action to be off them invega was hell on earth for me.i've been on them since like 2019, maybe even earlier. i was on like 100mgs or however it is weighed, not sure if it's mg's... after a few months of being on the injections they started weening me off of them, i've been on 30mgs since like 2020 or so. i get one injection every 28 days... the only real bad part about haldol for me is the sexual side effects. if it weren't for that i wouldn't notice. when i was on a lot of haldol, i couldn't orgasm at all. but as they started weening me off, it got better. with the dose i'm on now i can ejaculate one good normal feeling orgasm a day and then if i try to jerk off again it's like barely any semen and not very euphoric. so i just stick to jerking off once a day. lol. there's been times not on meds when i jerked off less than that so it's not a problem to me... for me though, haldol did nothing to stop my getting high on weed. i haven't tried any real psychedlics, but the anti-psychotics do nothing to stop my weed buzz, i still get acid flash backs from smoking weed and even when i'm not smoking weed... even on the higher doses of haldol, it didn't get rid of my auditory hallucinations. so i don't know. risperdal and quietapine kind of decreased my auditory hallucinations a bit, but still didn't stop them. my schizophrenia is pretty strong. i'm afraid to slip up again though and have them try other meds on me. i prefer to have schizophrenia. i don't know how i'd live with out it at this point actually.
after about a year the psychiatrist was actually going to ween me off the haldol, but my parents said i couldn't live with them if i wasn't on meds... i'm on a list to get into housing for the disabled. that might not be for five years till i get a room though. so i'm just gonna suck it up and take the injections. i don't plan on having kids, so i don't care if meds are ruining my semen. my therapist actually said what my parents are doing is illegal trying to keep me on the meds. i'm not going to hold it against them though.
yeah, i used to get high and torture them though. i remember throwing beer bottles around my yard for hours one time acting like what i imagine an angry female asian school teacher would sound like saying "you no good very bad girl" and "you no good very bad boy" to my parents. i used to think my neighbors and big brother or whatever you want to call it was plotting against me. one time i pissed all over the floor cause i'm pretty sure someone put something in my drink. this was my logical reaction when i was so fucked up. i pissed on the floor and told them to check it for drugs. lol. there's been so much of me fucking with my parents. like i realize i do it and i can stop, which i do now, because i just started to pity them... my mother cheated on my father before and they were split up. they used to have terrifying arguements when i was a very young child, so i would do stuff to get back at them.Shit man I’d hold it against them fuck being on meds if I don’t wana be on meds I’m gonna take action to be off them.
Ya igy I’ve never had schizophrenia just a psychotic episode from kratom withdrawal and sleep deprivation I kinda did torture people but in a different way.yeah, i used to get high and torture them though. i remember throwing beer bottles around my yard for hours one time acting like what i imagine an angry female asian school teacher would sound like saying "you no good very bad girl" and "you no good very bad boy" to my parents. i used to think my neighbors and big brother or whatever you want to call it was plotting against me. one time i pissed all over the floor cause i'm pretty sure someone put something in my drink. this was my logical reaction when i was so fucked up. i pissed on the floor and told them to check it for drugs. lol. there's been so much of me fucking with my parents. like i realize i do it and i can stop, which i do now, because i just started to pity them... my mother cheated on my father before and they were split up. they used to have terrifying arguements when i was a very young child, so i would do stuff to get back at them.