red_lights010110
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I've been using opiates to treat anxiety. I learned about "the opiate cure" by accident - my ex started getting hash mixed with opium and over time I realized I became more alert and productive after smoking it and my anxiety was nonexistent (also hash on its own usually just puts me to sleep). When the opium became impossible to find again, I started a regimen of vicoden and percs. While this still helps, it doesn't compare to the opium. Recently it has been harder to find pills but heroin is easily accessible.
I have avoided heroin for the longest time, having known people who died from overdoses. A few weeks ago, I decided to try smoking the most microscopic amount. I felt nothing and kept upping the dose little by little until I finally felt it. To my relief, it was the exact same feeling and effect as the opium. I was so relieved and happy I actually started crying amd laughing.
Fast forward to the past few days and I've noticed a drastic change in my mood. Nothing particularly bad has happened and I can't identify any triggers but I fall into deep depression (usually later in the day/night). I have no desire to continue interacting with people, prefering to go home and be alone, and have no energy to do anything, even activities I usually enjoy. I finally made the connection that it always happens several hours after I last smoked.
I'm wondering if anyone has advice on avoiding the depression (aside from cocaine because I have never used before). I will also consider anyones opinion on prescription meds for anxiety though I've always been afraid and don't trust those kinds of drugs. I like opiates because it is my understanding that they only affect the pain receptors (I might be wrong tho) and don't affect a person's psychology.
I have avoided heroin for the longest time, having known people who died from overdoses. A few weeks ago, I decided to try smoking the most microscopic amount. I felt nothing and kept upping the dose little by little until I finally felt it. To my relief, it was the exact same feeling and effect as the opium. I was so relieved and happy I actually started crying amd laughing.
Fast forward to the past few days and I've noticed a drastic change in my mood. Nothing particularly bad has happened and I can't identify any triggers but I fall into deep depression (usually later in the day/night). I have no desire to continue interacting with people, prefering to go home and be alone, and have no energy to do anything, even activities I usually enjoy. I finally made the connection that it always happens several hours after I last smoked.
I'm wondering if anyone has advice on avoiding the depression (aside from cocaine because I have never used before). I will also consider anyones opinion on prescription meds for anxiety though I've always been afraid and don't trust those kinds of drugs. I like opiates because it is my understanding that they only affect the pain receptors (I might be wrong tho) and don't affect a person's psychology.
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