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Hi
so im quite new experimenting psychadelics. i will sum up my experience.my first two times on LSD.
But first of all my questions:
I want to trip a third time. I do know that all trips are never the same. What im concerned is can you experience ego death or personal dissociation by just doing a small dose?
Also i have been taking 5htp for 5 days now. Stopped today. Can i still trip soon?
When i smoke weed i get a bit anxious and sometimes paranoid. Is it okay to smoke before peek on acid? or after?i enjoy the flavour of joints when im tripping.
Also is it okay do take some MDMA before? ive done that before acid both times but apparently is not safe?!
I actually want a clean trip this time. But just for future reference.
Any tips on how to ease myself before trip?
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first time : 1/4 of the blotter (had MDMA on my system + some speed)
i was scared but read a lot about it before. Also i was with people i trusted. Experienced users. Felt safe so gave it a go.
About an hour only got enhanced audition and clear vision like i was just wearing glasses. Nothing much.
so my friends asked me if i wanted another 1/4 of the blotter and i said yes. Might aswell do it properly.
30mins and hello wonderland.
felt like a kid! everything was magical. differente but the same...but different.
super intense felt like i was connected to the world and im a nothing but an important piece of this everything.
Later on felt a bit panicky at a time were i though my friends were talking about me. Proper paranoid.
Was just me tripping. Ive managed to speak to myself and say: naaa u just tripping.
the panicky feeling went away and i laughed again and joined them.
Saw eyes and a mouth on a tree and hugged the tree as that face freaked me out but i embraced that feeling.
climbed a mountain with a friend (i had the need to be always close to someone, just didnt want to walk around alone)
This was taken on a perfect place. near a river and beautifull colorfull flowers.
overall amazing experience. Felt a bit dettached from the world on the next day. Like theres so much more.
said to myself. i want to do it again.
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second time trip (also MDMA on system and lots of hash./not weed) also not planned trip.
Bunch of people in a house in the middle of the mountains. some people i didnt know so well.
everyone was on acid except a couple. Sitters.boy and girl (the people i didnt know)
took one 1/4.
different buzz. one of my friends said this was more into feelings and not so to visuals.
i actually felt amazing, light like a feather and more relaxed than first time.
way less visuals than first time.
as the peek wears off decided to put other 1/4
amazing. everyone laughing and instead of walking around and exploring the trip like my first time just felt like staying put sittung on couch with a big pillow (so comfy) and playing with a rubiks cube and drinking water plus smoking joints.
but at one point i felt like crying as the sitter asked if was feeling okay and wanted to give me food. like i felt overwhelmed by her kindness.plus i didnt know what happened as i stood up and just asked her to help me finding food. dont quite remember why that sudden feeling of desorientation.
i managed to control my emotions again by thinking im just tripping.literally felt overcomed by the tears sobbing feeling.
ate and felt awesome again.
rest of the trip was perfect again.
Next day felt normal and a bit sad that i didnt get so much of the spiritual feeling as my first trip.
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Now third time. I want to get the whole spiritual connection again. But im scared of doing a whole blotter.
I have the feeling that i can easily get panicky and anxious.
Also will be thinking about set and setting and the people around me this time. i will take a diazepam with me just in case and a blanket and extra different playlists.
But i dont want to worry to much. As much as i think about doing it i get more nervous about it.
Also i already suffered from severe panic attacks in the past.
I can control my emotions quite well but on acid its different.
Im scared of not understanding whilest tripping that im on acid and not beeing able of talking to myself through it as ive done it before. Like as soon as i feel panicky i say: ah im just tripping, laugh about it.
Like can this happened? not beeing able of talking yourself through it?
-----
Sorry for the long post and the amount of questions.
But i want to do this properly and enjoy the fullest the trip.
-----
ps: i love acid but i have massive respect as i easily saw how can you pass that thin line from a good trip to a bad trip.
Thank you ♥
so im quite new experimenting psychadelics. i will sum up my experience.my first two times on LSD.
But first of all my questions:
I want to trip a third time. I do know that all trips are never the same. What im concerned is can you experience ego death or personal dissociation by just doing a small dose?
Also i have been taking 5htp for 5 days now. Stopped today. Can i still trip soon?
When i smoke weed i get a bit anxious and sometimes paranoid. Is it okay to smoke before peek on acid? or after?i enjoy the flavour of joints when im tripping.
Also is it okay do take some MDMA before? ive done that before acid both times but apparently is not safe?!
I actually want a clean trip this time. But just for future reference.
Any tips on how to ease myself before trip?
---
first time : 1/4 of the blotter (had MDMA on my system + some speed)
i was scared but read a lot about it before. Also i was with people i trusted. Experienced users. Felt safe so gave it a go.
About an hour only got enhanced audition and clear vision like i was just wearing glasses. Nothing much.
so my friends asked me if i wanted another 1/4 of the blotter and i said yes. Might aswell do it properly.
30mins and hello wonderland.
felt like a kid! everything was magical. differente but the same...but different.
super intense felt like i was connected to the world and im a nothing but an important piece of this everything.
Later on felt a bit panicky at a time were i though my friends were talking about me. Proper paranoid.
Was just me tripping. Ive managed to speak to myself and say: naaa u just tripping.
the panicky feeling went away and i laughed again and joined them.
Saw eyes and a mouth on a tree and hugged the tree as that face freaked me out but i embraced that feeling.
climbed a mountain with a friend (i had the need to be always close to someone, just didnt want to walk around alone)
This was taken on a perfect place. near a river and beautifull colorfull flowers.
overall amazing experience. Felt a bit dettached from the world on the next day. Like theres so much more.
said to myself. i want to do it again.
-----
second time trip (also MDMA on system and lots of hash./not weed) also not planned trip.
Bunch of people in a house in the middle of the mountains. some people i didnt know so well.
everyone was on acid except a couple. Sitters.boy and girl (the people i didnt know)
took one 1/4.
different buzz. one of my friends said this was more into feelings and not so to visuals.
i actually felt amazing, light like a feather and more relaxed than first time.
way less visuals than first time.
as the peek wears off decided to put other 1/4
amazing. everyone laughing and instead of walking around and exploring the trip like my first time just felt like staying put sittung on couch with a big pillow (so comfy) and playing with a rubiks cube and drinking water plus smoking joints.
but at one point i felt like crying as the sitter asked if was feeling okay and wanted to give me food. like i felt overwhelmed by her kindness.plus i didnt know what happened as i stood up and just asked her to help me finding food. dont quite remember why that sudden feeling of desorientation.
i managed to control my emotions again by thinking im just tripping.literally felt overcomed by the tears sobbing feeling.
ate and felt awesome again.
rest of the trip was perfect again.
Next day felt normal and a bit sad that i didnt get so much of the spiritual feeling as my first trip.
------
Now third time. I want to get the whole spiritual connection again. But im scared of doing a whole blotter.
I have the feeling that i can easily get panicky and anxious.
Also will be thinking about set and setting and the people around me this time. i will take a diazepam with me just in case and a blanket and extra different playlists.
But i dont want to worry to much. As much as i think about doing it i get more nervous about it.
Also i already suffered from severe panic attacks in the past.
I can control my emotions quite well but on acid its different.
Im scared of not understanding whilest tripping that im on acid and not beeing able of talking to myself through it as ive done it before. Like as soon as i feel panicky i say: ah im just tripping, laugh about it.
Like can this happened? not beeing able of talking yourself through it?
-----
Sorry for the long post and the amount of questions.
But i want to do this properly and enjoy the fullest the trip.
-----
ps: i love acid but i have massive respect as i easily saw how can you pass that thin line from a good trip to a bad trip.
Thank you ♥