urgentrascal
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I have been smoking meth pretty much everyday since June. I was going through about 3 grams (5 at times) every week or 2. I have been gradually reducing, and currently have my last gram.
The first time I smoked was with my older cousins, years ago. I took a couple of hits here and there, but would never think of picking up alone if they were not present. 2 years ago on vacation,
had my first anxiety attack due to smoking meth and not being hydrated.
I am 27 years old, a regular cigarette smoker (started at 19, smokes around 6-10 a day since addiction), not a drinker, I was addicted to coke on 2 occasions both lasting around 6 months. Presently I am scared, I dont know why I started and kept smoking. I am 5'7 and weighed around 175 lbs before the addiction started, now I weigh around 145. I started getting a tight feeling on my chest (around the middle) and sometimes on my lower left peck by the armpit,
white spots on tongue, started getting panic/anxiety attacks this week because of worrying. Although some are manageable, there were a few where I broke down cried and was very frightened to go to sleep. Also my lower back started feeling a sharp annoying pain, its not really painful but it has traveled to my right calf, not sure if meth started or contributed to this.
I have a loving family and girlfriend. I was on the path of being healthy before now, i feel like Ive destroyed myself and my self confidence is plummeting, I lost my dream job and could not hold on to a new one.
Tonight I am posting this because I am experiencing tightness once again and Im very scared... I am desperate for advice and guidance.
Thank you for reading and your advice.
The first time I smoked was with my older cousins, years ago. I took a couple of hits here and there, but would never think of picking up alone if they were not present. 2 years ago on vacation,
had my first anxiety attack due to smoking meth and not being hydrated.
I am 27 years old, a regular cigarette smoker (started at 19, smokes around 6-10 a day since addiction), not a drinker, I was addicted to coke on 2 occasions both lasting around 6 months. Presently I am scared, I dont know why I started and kept smoking. I am 5'7 and weighed around 175 lbs before the addiction started, now I weigh around 145. I started getting a tight feeling on my chest (around the middle) and sometimes on my lower left peck by the armpit,
white spots on tongue, started getting panic/anxiety attacks this week because of worrying. Although some are manageable, there were a few where I broke down cried and was very frightened to go to sleep. Also my lower back started feeling a sharp annoying pain, its not really painful but it has traveled to my right calf, not sure if meth started or contributed to this.
I have a loving family and girlfriend. I was on the path of being healthy before now, i feel like Ive destroyed myself and my self confidence is plummeting, I lost my dream job and could not hold on to a new one.
Tonight I am posting this because I am experiencing tightness once again and Im very scared... I am desperate for advice and guidance.
Thank you for reading and your advice.