Thankyou. The support on this thread has been amazing. It?s 5pm where I am. I took 3 at 7am when I got up. I had a half there ready to take and was running late for dropping my daughter off and I rushed out the door without taking the other half. I feel really ok. Im feeling more tired and I yawn a lot - but that?s the effects I feel and even at that it?s not a ?high? tired sleepy. First day without a sore head Aswell which is amazing. I?ve been waiting on it coming all day and nothing. God I don?t want to jinx it. I know it?s only really been 4 days of green tea, magnesium, vitamin b6, omega 3 fish oils and a multivitamin. But I?m not as agitated as I was even slightly. You?re right about taking my time. I think I know i want to continue down this path and try and get down to 2 then even 1 if it?s possible. But I can live with that compared to what I was taking at one point. I?m hoping I?m on the right path to a better and healthier way of living. If this path unfortunately fails me then I?ll have to try another one. I find the thought of living daily trying NOT to take just as exhausting as taking and I fear my life will be consumed by these pills for the duration whether I?m taking them or not. I don?t feel like I?ve over dosed by taking 3 this morning but I?ve been told that I have over dosed. I?m not familiar with all this because to me that?s not over dosing but then when it says on the bottle 2 to be taken 4 times a day then I guess I am but I still have to try and think to myself that 3 in the morning over 24 hours must be better for me than 8 spread out over 24 hours. I just don?t know what?s right or wrong. I?m just doing what I can to keep my withdrawals at bay and my head above the water. To me over dosing would be what I was doing a few months ago. But I just don?t know now with all the things other people have been saying. I?m really proud that I?ve managed only 3 today and to feel ok. Makes me feel hopeful but then at the same time worried that I?m blinded. In another recovery group I told them
I was on 3 dihydrocodeine and I?m doing ok, and was told I was still over dosing and should go on a methadone programme ..... this really took me aback because I?m not a doctor but I?d like to think I?m sensible enough to know that 3 dihydrocodeine a day must be better for me than asking my doctor to methadone. But again I keep
Thinking are they right and I?m stupid And dihydrocodeine is so much worse for me than methadone. It?s bizzarw because despite feeling like I?m on the right path - I still feel conflicted. I appreciate all the replies and advice I?m getting here. This is by far the best forum
I?ve been on looking for help for this. I?m eternally grateful to anyone who takes time out their lives to respond to me
Anna xxx
Oh another guy on a fb support group said I was ?just a pretty face hiding behind a dangerous addiction and I was fooling nobody with my 3 a day bullshit?!! And it?s really not BS. I?m
On 3 a day and I disagree with him that I should go onto methadone. Comments like his make me feel like absolute crap [/QUOTE
ANNA I?ve heard this my whole fucking life EVERYTHING THAT IS GOOD OR BAD IS MY FAULT BECAUSE I AM PRETTY AND PRIVILEGED. Farthest from the truth I earned every fucking scar through every war I was put through and not BECAUSE IM PRETTY. It?s not fair, and it?s not true. YOU DESERVE AS EVERY HUMAN BEING DOES THE RIGHT TO YOUR OWN STORY YOUR OWN FREEDOM. GO BACK TO THAT GROUP and tell him if that?s your advice sounds like you need another drink, if this is your sobriety advice you fucking miserable prick you need to use. And if you don?t want to let me I got your back till you can stand again. Left up your head u r worthy and deserve to love, be loved, and be free! ~XO
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