I'm to tired to go into detail as only had an hours sleep, but imagine your body crushing itself when you're trying to sleep but can't, and I can't walk far or do anything I could do a few years ago as the pain is bad, worse in flair ups and if I over do it I'm stuck in bed for days, so no more raves or anything for me by looks of it, I can't even stand up for more than a few minutes, I end up sitting on shop floors if I'm in a que and it's taking to long, I can't sit up, I have to lay down or prop up on cushions as my backs so weak even sitting up I feel like my top half is crushing my back, it's real please look it up on Google instead of making me feel worse than I already do I've got a very bad benzos withdrawal I need to go through and I'm so scared and you keep on at me about it, I don't mean to sound mean but I don't understand why you keep asking me about it