whathaveidone
Greenlighter
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- Dec 12, 2017
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hi guys....im a chronic pain patient and prescribed hydromorphone extended release....
i have been crushing the beads and taking nasally for over a year anyway....when i was really sick from burning through my meds the only thing i could get was H.....
god dammit i wish id never found it....i smoke it and sometimes will smoke a gram in a day along with anywhere up to 48mg of hydro normally 24 at a time....i have enough of the medication left to last a week and i have money to buy H but i do not want to obviously i want off everything.....
my question is this: will i be able to leave the H and transition back to my meds without having to go over 50mg per day?? at first i will still take nasally but i want to get back to oral and then off completely....provided i dont get cut off. what would you do if you get cut off are doctors allowed to suddenly cut you off if youve been on them for a long time?
i can load up on over the counter stuff i am so done with this brutal lifestyle all i think about is making sure i dont get sick....i dont even get high i just need the stuff to stay straight and i absolutely hate it....so unfair i want away from all of this...
please please please help with ANY advice.....i would seriously appreciate anything and like i said this will be the last thread i create. please help i am in dire straights here and just want the old me back again....
i love my family so much and ive let everyone down....i hate myself for what ive become. i work my ass off and take great pride in my job...i do not want to lose it i dont want to lose everything and if i do i dont think ill hang around much longer as i know i wouldnt be able to live with the shame,
so there you go, im literally on my knees begging for advice, encouragement, sucess stories, anything that will help me defeat my demons and stay on a one true path....i want to be happy without any substances...i am alone in this country i dont have anybody (seriously...) so please help, anything is appreciated
ive heard great things about loperamide but after alot of research still not sure how to take it to beat withdrawals so help with that too would be awesome!
thanks to all of you....if i can do this ill be here to offer support to anyone who needs it
i will also like to actively help people in the community beat their addictions aswell....
thanks
i have been crushing the beads and taking nasally for over a year anyway....when i was really sick from burning through my meds the only thing i could get was H.....
god dammit i wish id never found it....i smoke it and sometimes will smoke a gram in a day along with anywhere up to 48mg of hydro normally 24 at a time....i have enough of the medication left to last a week and i have money to buy H but i do not want to obviously i want off everything.....
my question is this: will i be able to leave the H and transition back to my meds without having to go over 50mg per day?? at first i will still take nasally but i want to get back to oral and then off completely....provided i dont get cut off. what would you do if you get cut off are doctors allowed to suddenly cut you off if youve been on them for a long time?
i can load up on over the counter stuff i am so done with this brutal lifestyle all i think about is making sure i dont get sick....i dont even get high i just need the stuff to stay straight and i absolutely hate it....so unfair i want away from all of this...
please please please help with ANY advice.....i would seriously appreciate anything and like i said this will be the last thread i create. please help i am in dire straights here and just want the old me back again....
i love my family so much and ive let everyone down....i hate myself for what ive become. i work my ass off and take great pride in my job...i do not want to lose it i dont want to lose everything and if i do i dont think ill hang around much longer as i know i wouldnt be able to live with the shame,
so there you go, im literally on my knees begging for advice, encouragement, sucess stories, anything that will help me defeat my demons and stay on a one true path....i want to be happy without any substances...i am alone in this country i dont have anybody (seriously...) so please help, anything is appreciated
ive heard great things about loperamide but after alot of research still not sure how to take it to beat withdrawals so help with that too would be awesome!
thanks to all of you....if i can do this ill be here to offer support to anyone who needs it
i will also like to actively help people in the community beat their addictions aswell....
thanks
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