sterling J
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- Jun 19, 2014
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Call it somewhat philosophical, but I just had to sign up to vent this/let it out. It still baffles me.
I'm a normal 26 year old male. Nice car, nice apartment, nice job, usual first-world problems. I'm just your typical guy. Friendly, guys like me, girls like me, although I am single. I'm the guy who will do anything for anybody. (LOL sounding like this is cupid.com)
Now I'm clever, I often overthink things. I'm a bit neurotic. Antsy. I don't like to sit still. I get anxious at times. I get awkward at times. It's not that I am shy, but I just find myself not wanting to bother with social situations a lot of the time. I can be decidedly reclusive in nature. I'm a perfectionist with OCD tendencies and there's always something I feel is 'not right' or want to change. Going through life, I'm constantly over-thinking about basically... everything. Always have thoughts rattling around my head, and they can be hard to turn off (especially when I want to sleep). I don't drink, don't do drugs, I'm not a party animal, and the one time I was on anti depressants they freaking ruined my life. However, I had a persistent lower back pain and was prescribed Tramadol last year. And.
The way I feel when I'm on Tramadol, is the way I wish I could feel all the time. It's the way I imagine people who are 100% happy and content with their lives feel most of the time.
I know it does nothing for some people, but there is not a single thing, that Tramadol does not improve in my life.
I take just one 100mg sustained release (occasionally, I'm not a big user, I hear it's abusable). And life for that day and night becomes walking perfection.
Everything becomes 'O K'.
Life slows down.
All negative thoughts cease to exist.
I get calm.
I get warm.
My voice lowers, and baritones.
I can think clearly.
I can hold conversations. I get talkative, in a good way.
I become more productive at work.
I am more comical and charming.
I am the life of the party, though usually I am decidedly reserved - can't give too much of the game away.
I get this untold confidence to approach any situation with innate superiority. As in talking in front of a live audience.
I sleep so vividly and soundly.
Men look up to me. They want to be involved in what I'm doing, etc.
And more incredibly, women FLOCK to me. And this isn't a 'confidence on my part' kind of deal. I don't even do anything. If you want to delve into your pheromone theories or what have you, the same women who would otherwise avoid even eye contact with me, will actually just walk up and come and stand close to me, and then start talking TO ME?!!!!! That almost never happens. It's like I'm giving off some kind of 'awesome' vibe.
And then, the greatest part of all. Not only does Tramadol have this strange constant erection-giving effect, it also give me the ability to have the hardest sex possible and not finish until I actually want to. And it still feels amazing. It just totally blocks the effect of the natural mechanics functioning until I FORCE myself to finish. HOW?! I always wonder. More research needs to be done on this amazing product, and I know it's even being prescribed as such. But still, more isolation is needed.
Now I know what you're thinking at this point... mind over matter. But it's in no way a placebo effect. For a long while actually, I had no idea that it even was the Tramadol until I attributed it to everything that was happening. It's not a confidence booster, it just brings out this feeling in me, the way I wish I could always be. The way I actually try to be every day, but that doesn't work or never feels right. It's not the fact that 'being high' does it, because no other drug, or alcohol, or anything even comes close to mimicking the feeling. I wish I knew what it was in isolation that was doing such wonderful things.
It's quite sad in a way, because I'm smart enough to know that
A. this is the reason addictive drugs shouldn't be abused and in turn
B. this is why I can't take it every day.
In short.
I wish life were like being on Tramadol all the time.
I love Tramadol. And I really hate that I love it so much.
I'm a normal 26 year old male. Nice car, nice apartment, nice job, usual first-world problems. I'm just your typical guy. Friendly, guys like me, girls like me, although I am single. I'm the guy who will do anything for anybody. (LOL sounding like this is cupid.com)
Now I'm clever, I often overthink things. I'm a bit neurotic. Antsy. I don't like to sit still. I get anxious at times. I get awkward at times. It's not that I am shy, but I just find myself not wanting to bother with social situations a lot of the time. I can be decidedly reclusive in nature. I'm a perfectionist with OCD tendencies and there's always something I feel is 'not right' or want to change. Going through life, I'm constantly over-thinking about basically... everything. Always have thoughts rattling around my head, and they can be hard to turn off (especially when I want to sleep). I don't drink, don't do drugs, I'm not a party animal, and the one time I was on anti depressants they freaking ruined my life. However, I had a persistent lower back pain and was prescribed Tramadol last year. And.
The way I feel when I'm on Tramadol, is the way I wish I could feel all the time. It's the way I imagine people who are 100% happy and content with their lives feel most of the time.
I know it does nothing for some people, but there is not a single thing, that Tramadol does not improve in my life.
I take just one 100mg sustained release (occasionally, I'm not a big user, I hear it's abusable). And life for that day and night becomes walking perfection.
Everything becomes 'O K'.
Life slows down.
All negative thoughts cease to exist.
I get calm.
I get warm.
My voice lowers, and baritones.
I can think clearly.
I can hold conversations. I get talkative, in a good way.
I become more productive at work.
I am more comical and charming.
I am the life of the party, though usually I am decidedly reserved - can't give too much of the game away.
I get this untold confidence to approach any situation with innate superiority. As in talking in front of a live audience.
I sleep so vividly and soundly.
Men look up to me. They want to be involved in what I'm doing, etc.
And more incredibly, women FLOCK to me. And this isn't a 'confidence on my part' kind of deal. I don't even do anything. If you want to delve into your pheromone theories or what have you, the same women who would otherwise avoid even eye contact with me, will actually just walk up and come and stand close to me, and then start talking TO ME?!!!!! That almost never happens. It's like I'm giving off some kind of 'awesome' vibe.
And then, the greatest part of all. Not only does Tramadol have this strange constant erection-giving effect, it also give me the ability to have the hardest sex possible and not finish until I actually want to. And it still feels amazing. It just totally blocks the effect of the natural mechanics functioning until I FORCE myself to finish. HOW?! I always wonder. More research needs to be done on this amazing product, and I know it's even being prescribed as such. But still, more isolation is needed.
Now I know what you're thinking at this point... mind over matter. But it's in no way a placebo effect. For a long while actually, I had no idea that it even was the Tramadol until I attributed it to everything that was happening. It's not a confidence booster, it just brings out this feeling in me, the way I wish I could always be. The way I actually try to be every day, but that doesn't work or never feels right. It's not the fact that 'being high' does it, because no other drug, or alcohol, or anything even comes close to mimicking the feeling. I wish I knew what it was in isolation that was doing such wonderful things.
It's quite sad in a way, because I'm smart enough to know that
A. this is the reason addictive drugs shouldn't be abused and in turn
B. this is why I can't take it every day.
In short.
I wish life were like being on Tramadol all the time.
I love Tramadol. And I really hate that I love it so much.