I have been in a monogamous relationship for 4 and 1/2 years and in that time we have had alot of ups and downs , opioid addiction (me), and produced a lil one. Its been difficult but it has been good more than bad emotionaly. We are close but have been getting distant.
I have difficulties in obtaining steady and gainful employment as I have a bad rap sheet. We lived together for 2yrs and have been separate for the rest and remained in the relationship. Sex is amazing and has never been bad at all. All in all it feels like steady struggle to try to find housing together as my charge prevents most options from being available.
Recently whilst up all night on a lil m-amp I came across a girl that I seen on a social website. We have been talking for a few days and I havent used any m-amp since then. She is very pretty and I am attracted to her physical and mentaly she is really cool and funny.
I dont know if its just the struggles of my current relationship or that new relationship-esque glow that happens that wears off after a perioid. Ya know the feeling where its all new and no fuck ups have happened?
I am unsure what I should do, really throw away 4+ years and create a broken home or find out after another 3yrs that we just grew apart and the new girl will be in my what-if catagory...
Either way I feel like a fucking biggot dirt bag scummy fucker because I have never cheated... ever. I dont want anyone hurt or lead on. The new girl is just so how the fuck are you single..your amazing ,so far,.!? The one I am with now is like I love you and dont want anything to happen to you at all.
My current girl is very shy and she credits most of her flourishment to me helping her get outta her depression and timidity.
I feel many different ways. Mostly excited about what could be and angry that I can do this to a person that has been there and I claimed love for so long.
So how shitty of a piece of shit am I?
I have difficulties in obtaining steady and gainful employment as I have a bad rap sheet. We lived together for 2yrs and have been separate for the rest and remained in the relationship. Sex is amazing and has never been bad at all. All in all it feels like steady struggle to try to find housing together as my charge prevents most options from being available.
Recently whilst up all night on a lil m-amp I came across a girl that I seen on a social website. We have been talking for a few days and I havent used any m-amp since then. She is very pretty and I am attracted to her physical and mentaly she is really cool and funny.
I dont know if its just the struggles of my current relationship or that new relationship-esque glow that happens that wears off after a perioid. Ya know the feeling where its all new and no fuck ups have happened?
I am unsure what I should do, really throw away 4+ years and create a broken home or find out after another 3yrs that we just grew apart and the new girl will be in my what-if catagory...
Either way I feel like a fucking biggot dirt bag scummy fucker because I have never cheated... ever. I dont want anyone hurt or lead on. The new girl is just so how the fuck are you single..your amazing ,so far,.!? The one I am with now is like I love you and dont want anything to happen to you at all.
My current girl is very shy and she credits most of her flourishment to me helping her get outta her depression and timidity.
I feel many different ways. Mostly excited about what could be and angry that I can do this to a person that has been there and I claimed love for so long.
So how shitty of a piece of shit am I?