Im sorry im probably coming across like quite the fuckup as of late. but im freaking out pretty good andits only making it worse. Relatively new to Meth. i dont mess with it much. once every 3 weeks? I cant give you precise doses. i just can say that i had a quarter g. swallowed like 1/4 of that at 1. all is fine. swalllowed a slightly smaller chunk at 4. still things are fine.another tiny chunk at like 7. drove home feeling very alert but i wasnt noticeably high like ive experienced in the past. soo this is where i fucked up. 11pm im going to a bonfire. i shldnt of took any cuz of the hour but i took all but the rest. this time crushed up and parachuted. at this point i have a rather disturbing phonecall from my gf. who apparently has to tell me rigth at this hour that her ex (whom has notoriously gotten drunk and beat her, id love to of beat dude ass along time ago but her youngest daughter is to him so i guess i listen, and as far as i know nothing has occured since we have been togethr. also you must take into consideration (dont judge its jus really complicated) that she still lives with him so im constantly worried but i trust her) I guess he came home drunk and tried ya know. ok thats not everything, im told nothing occured but this has happeend before. im not gonna crucify anyone for telling someone no butdidnt quite get why she wld think id leave over such a thing. then i put it together when she oddly ask me if something did happen between them what would happen between us. sounded bad to me.... about an hour after i took the last dose i was firing on all cyllinders i felt fine too. untill all that happened and i couldnt stop thinking about going over and taking a bat to this douchbag. if u hit women u dont derserve a fair fight. period. then i thought about maybe something did occur. before i knew what was happening My temper just pretty much exploded. (im italian, my temper is by far my worse feature, its one i dont drink anymore, but id still never put my hands on a girl). Well as i said i have a horrid temper, and i just cant stop shaking and my heart is thumping extremly hard and fast. every once in awhile id get a pain in right side of chest. I use to do Insanity workouts regularly but this is insane. i know this is a HR sight but i dont want the safeest answer i want your opinion. this is about 4 hours in and the only good point is i havent felt and pain. Heart disease runs in my immediate family big time. im sorry this i so all over the place and drawn out and probabaly way more then anyone cared to read or know about me. but im pissed, and scared, and high, and ive tried everyone i cld think of via phone, text, facebook that has medical background or ampetamine background. and sorry for airing my affairs but felt kinda good to write it. any info to rest my mind would be a god send. or hell any info on any of it, outside perspectve is nice