I started on Tuesday and straight up told her I ONLY need a low dose. So i'm at 2mg 2xday. That almost seems like alot, but I definately want to do it correctly and find out what is the best stabilization dose. I tend to maintain for awhile through outpatient treatment and get off of sub asap.
I always advocate very low dose suboxone maintanence and your right, 4mg's a day still seems pretty high in my opinion.....but, I personally dont see anything morally wrong with not having your doctor put you on a low dose, and get whatever she scripts you(probably 12-32mg's) and then just take only like 2mg's a day and save the rest. Very quickly(maybe even after only one or two visits depending on how many pills you want) you could just stop going to the sub doctor because you have stockpiled so many pills and are on such a low dose, you could just maintain on subs how you feel works best, and also taper off in a much better way because most doctors force patients to jump off at like 4mg's or more sometimes....its insane.
Think about it, if you were prescribed like 24mg's a day(which ALOT of peopole are) but only took 2 mg's(if not liess) then that would leave 22mg's/day you save, so after the first month/script, you should have about 680mg's saved up, give or take a coupe mg's. And if I did my math correctly, 680mg's of sub, ona daily dose of only 2mg's would last you about 341 days...almost a year....and thats from your first prescription alone. If you went a second time to your sub doc, and got yet another script, you could do the same and the number would be doubled and you would have about 2 years worth of suboxone saved up.....and of course, you might decide to lower your dose even more down the road(which is what I reccommend...about 0.5-1mg/day) and in that case, the subs would last you much longer. maybe years.
Thats just my thoughts, and also what I have done myself. I think it is less of a moral problem because of how little these doctors understand about suboxone and how to taper you correctly, and what dose to keep you at. Im actually suprised that your doctor agreed to only give you 4mg's/day because thats pretty much the threshold to where you can take full agonists only a couple(or maybe a few depending on the persoon) hr's after your last dose. I know that when I was taking about 1.5-2mg's/day(sometimes more) I could take a full agonist almost at any time with little blocking effects from the subs. Maybe you dont want that I dunno, but I knew I could trust myself and Ive only used full agonists while on suboxone very few times the entire time I was on subs, and it definitely wasnt because I hjad an urge to use or soemthing, it was either because I was just bored and had an opportunity that worked great around my drug testing schedule, or it was because of horrible pain I was in. Either way, I never used heroin or oxy while on subs because I couldnt resist temptation....and to be honest, I really didnt enjoy it that much, I mean, it still felt the same as back before I was on subs and was using everyday, but I just didnt enjoy it like I use to...I think that was because suboxone gave me time to realize whats really important in life and using hardd drugs like that kind of disgusts me for some reason, and im not exactly sure why. Sry for talking about a bunch of shit no one cares about.
Just a little advice I think might help. Good Luck
*I was in EXTREMELY intense pain when I wrote this so I apologize if my math is off, but I think i did allright.