Erikmen, I can imagine that the fear of losing that "shred of safety" is huge. For me the issue of exploring "safety" in life has been really fruitful. I've always been looking for it, trying to create it, obsessing over it etc etc for as long as I can remember. It was not until my son died (the biggest fear in my life come true) that I was able to start understanding how to live without the concept of safety. There really is none. And yet humans spend their entire lives sometimes trying to prop up the illusion that there is. For me it has been a completely unexpected relief to abandon the concept of safety altogether. Amazingly, I am less anxious and less fearful now than I have ever been in my life.8) Sometimes, I still marvel at that.