Hi all,
I send Power to all of you who are fighting to win the battle against addiction!
My personal war is against pharmaceuticals.
I'm not sure if you consider those as drugs at all, if this is wrong forum, can moderator move this first message.
I've been using those (this time) 2 years.
I don't wan't to numb myself anymore, and joining this forum is at least a start to kick the habit.
"Drugs" that I use;
About daily doses: (I work from hone and I wake up usually around 11:00)
I consume those around 6 hours period in the evening. those make me numb. Escaping reality done... (Then I don't think/do things that I should. It takes stress away. I don't get any euphoria anymore, just numbing myself. )
Due this my life is as numb like me. Stuck in a mud, no movement. This is so God damn stupid that I can't understand why I eat that S**t. I'm an addict, that is the reason. I've always been addict. Now I will force it tot he background and control it. Keep the addiction restrained.
I don't drink alcohol, because I had very bad drinking problem when I was younger. It almost killed me, I could talk alcohol problems 100 pages, but this thread is not about drinking.
If there anything positive in this, that would be ability use my will and steer clear from hard drugs. For that I'm Very grateful. When I was drinking myself to dead, i also used some drugs. speed, Cannabis, LSD, couple of times heroin.
There is some information about my situation, sending this message a good start, it shows my mind that now is time for changes.
I'd like to quit all of them all at once. If someone have been similar situation, I'd appreciate if you could share your experience.
Any advice or anything is greatly appreciated.
Thank you for reading this message, I wish you all the best!
Best regards,
-number-
PS (English is not my first language, sorry about spelling mistakes in the message,)
I send Power to all of you who are fighting to win the battle against addiction!
My personal war is against pharmaceuticals.
I'm not sure if you consider those as drugs at all, if this is wrong forum, can moderator move this first message.
I've been using those (this time) 2 years.
I don't wan't to numb myself anymore, and joining this forum is at least a start to kick the habit.
"Drugs" that I use;
- Tramadol
- Diazepam (same as valium)
- Xanax
- Pregapalin
- Dihydrocodeine
- morphine (didn't work for me so I don't take them anymore)
- oxycodone (didn't work for me so I don't take them anymore)
About daily doses: (I work from hone and I wake up usually around 11:00)
- about two hours after waking up, the first dose is 600 mg Tramadol (tablets, but I chew them to get faster fix) I don't get any euphoria, just feeling normal, make me able to function better.
- Then there is about 4-5 hour break. Then I consume drugs listed below:
- Tramadol (average daily total is 1300 mg - 1500 mg)
- pregapalin 1050 mg average
- Xanax 6 mg average
- Diazepam 30 - 50 mg
- Dihydrocodeine 600 mg ( I take less tramadol in the evening when using dhc)
I consume those around 6 hours period in the evening. those make me numb. Escaping reality done... (Then I don't think/do things that I should. It takes stress away. I don't get any euphoria anymore, just numbing myself. )
Due this my life is as numb like me. Stuck in a mud, no movement. This is so God damn stupid that I can't understand why I eat that S**t. I'm an addict, that is the reason. I've always been addict. Now I will force it tot he background and control it. Keep the addiction restrained.
I don't drink alcohol, because I had very bad drinking problem when I was younger. It almost killed me, I could talk alcohol problems 100 pages, but this thread is not about drinking.
If there anything positive in this, that would be ability use my will and steer clear from hard drugs. For that I'm Very grateful. When I was drinking myself to dead, i also used some drugs. speed, Cannabis, LSD, couple of times heroin.
There is some information about my situation, sending this message a good start, it shows my mind that now is time for changes.
I'd like to quit all of them all at once. If someone have been similar situation, I'd appreciate if you could share your experience.
Any advice or anything is greatly appreciated.
Thank you for reading this message, I wish you all the best!
Best regards,
-number-
PS (English is not my first language, sorry about spelling mistakes in the message,)