Well my weekend away wasnt as bad as I imagined.
Though everyone was drinking and my aunt/uncle/cousin drank fairly heavily each evening.
It didnt bother me like it used to. And my oma was supportive: "Dont let them pressure you if you dont wanna drink"
...
Friday I figured Id get stoned and finish up some shopping/wrapping while the girls went dress shopping for my cousins wedding (next summer). However, my oma wanted to stay back and get some food prep done for dinner the following day and asked for my help. It only took me a few minutes to realize this would go alot smoother with one of the weed cookies I brought. Im sure it woulda been decent either way but with a little help it was a really nice time.
As we prepped we talked about a lot of things.
What stood out most was at one point we were bitching about my brother being a bit of a turd surrounding family events. Ex last year he bailed on dinner with the other side by inviting my oma over for dinner on the same night. If he doesnt wanna come fine but even my oma was upset that hed put her in the middle of it (as she never got along with my dad/his side - theyre kind of intensely annoying if im tbh lol). Then I was on about how I dont like that we have to give gifts when really all I want is a nice dinner, more often than twice a year... "I need your presence not your presents" to which my Oma responded "Whoa thats deep" (or something along the lines) and all I could think was that she had a little contact high going lol..
Afterwards we sat and she recoutned old times... of the war and how things have changed .. stories of my opa (who passed when I was 11) etc...
It was a really nice time.
..
Saturday was "Christmas" for us and my brother was coming from out of town, as well, and was to be there by 12. As noted hes kind of a turd for gatherings and sure enough he was in fine form... After not responding to anyones msgs he finally responds to me at 12 stating they had trouble finding a dog sitter and were still 2 hrs away .. everyone was griping while we watched the 4th hr of tv for the day so I said "Why not" and ate 200 ug of ald 52 shortly after 12pm
I was coming up within the hour but I figured the shit eating grin was going to give it away ... and I kinda suppressed the experience.
But by the time my brother got there at 2 I was beginning a wonderful experience.
It was much lighter than my previous experiences at thanksgiving at this level. But I felt amazing and when my Oma started crying, during our gift exchange, when I gave her a school picture of my daughter which had the words "Laugh, love live" - a phrase my mom always had around - I knew that none of us were ok with it, though its been almost 3 years since she passed away. And yet despite this fact we were all their for each other and some how that made things that much better. (We were never really close but somehow moms passing brought us a lot closer - as they know my dads a twat lol)
The rest of the evening, and the weekend, was uneventful.
Dinner was great though and having helped prepare I got out of dish duty haha fuck ya, dishes are my least favourite chore...
My cousin and daughter got to spend some quality time together on Sunday.. So overall a decent weekend
....
@AutoTripper ya most of my salt is from processed foods. I was doing really well for a number of months reducing my intake of crap and then Halloween came and ya know ... I fell back into old habits unfortunately. When Im eating proper tho Id say most of my salt still comes from processed foods though its more along the lines of bread and sauces (bbq, ketchup etc) which I know I need to cut out as well.... I never add salt to anything though I recognize its importance I didnt realize we needed to consume it beyond what comes naturally.
However, my blood pressure is not too high (what I think you may be getting at by asking about my sodium intake lol) - rather its too low. And Im often dizzy when standing