Well, here it is. Just (literally) but the bow on a week that featured 31.5g and $1750 going up my f-cking nose. Looking back, I’m probably $50-60k all in over the years. And no one (other than my dog and former therapist) really knows. My wife thinks I have severe manic / depression, which, to me, is better than the truth. I’m 100% she would leave me - and I wouldn’t blame her. But I would be very afraid of that tailspin - as rudderless as I am at times, probably the only reason I haven’t gone completely off the edge is her.
I got a new job I love a month ago. I called in fake sick all last week cause I was gacked out. I blew an interview for another job I really would have loved because I couldn’t stop doing blow the night before and didn’t sleep. Like Jesus f-ing Christ - why is wrong with me? I don’t do it all the time, but when I do - holy fuck. Always by myself - average an 8-ball in 12-18 hours and after 2-3 lines I’m paranoid as shit hiding under the covers to take a hit etc.
How bad is it? After ceremoniously finishing up and saying to my dog maybe that it, I texted my wife to tell her I missed her - then is started wearing off a bit and I texted my dealer.
Jesus.
I got a new job I love a month ago. I called in fake sick all last week cause I was gacked out. I blew an interview for another job I really would have loved because I couldn’t stop doing blow the night before and didn’t sleep. Like Jesus f-ing Christ - why is wrong with me? I don’t do it all the time, but when I do - holy fuck. Always by myself - average an 8-ball in 12-18 hours and after 2-3 lines I’m paranoid as shit hiding under the covers to take a hit etc.
How bad is it? After ceremoniously finishing up and saying to my dog maybe that it, I texted my wife to tell her I missed her - then is started wearing off a bit and I texted my dealer.
Jesus.