Hello. I don't know what's wrong with me but my MDMA abuse has led to me feeling nothing like the person I once was. I know there are forums which are closely related to this kind if topic but I can't really find anything specific to my circumstances.
Anyway, I'm 18 and I started taking MDMA about 18 months ago and have been taking it on and off since then, sometimes taking decent breaks between rolls and other times rolling (for example) 4 weeks in concession. I've taken some stupidly high doses and done a fair bit of redosing. Last time I rolled was 3 weeks ago. I feel as though I have done some harm to my brain/mental health, the problem is I don't know what it is or what action to take! I have noticed that: I get brain fog, like I can be thinking about something then my mind will just go blank and I also find it hard to form thoughts sometimes. I even find difficulty in thinking about day to day things, like I can't develop a train of thought. In social situations I used to be quite funny and chatty but now it's like I'm boring, I struggle to keep a conversation and never have anything to say. I used to be friends with pretty much everyone in my year at school but now I find it hard to socialise. Dont know whether this is just a bit of post MDMA depression or if it could be something more serious like a mental illness, whatever it is it's always on my mind, always wondering what's wrong with me and thinking I've inflicted brain damage to myself or something. Anyone able to tell me what this is and if so what the best action to take would be!? Any help would be much appreciated.
Anyway, I'm 18 and I started taking MDMA about 18 months ago and have been taking it on and off since then, sometimes taking decent breaks between rolls and other times rolling (for example) 4 weeks in concession. I've taken some stupidly high doses and done a fair bit of redosing. Last time I rolled was 3 weeks ago. I feel as though I have done some harm to my brain/mental health, the problem is I don't know what it is or what action to take! I have noticed that: I get brain fog, like I can be thinking about something then my mind will just go blank and I also find it hard to form thoughts sometimes. I even find difficulty in thinking about day to day things, like I can't develop a train of thought. In social situations I used to be quite funny and chatty but now it's like I'm boring, I struggle to keep a conversation and never have anything to say. I used to be friends with pretty much everyone in my year at school but now I find it hard to socialise. Dont know whether this is just a bit of post MDMA depression or if it could be something more serious like a mental illness, whatever it is it's always on my mind, always wondering what's wrong with me and thinking I've inflicted brain damage to myself or something. Anyone able to tell me what this is and if so what the best action to take would be!? Any help would be much appreciated.
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