turdballs2
Greenlighter
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- Apr 22, 2023
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Hello all,
Last night I think my brain created the proper chemicals to put me in a state of normalcy. I just got over a depressed episode (not sure of duration) but remember barely being able to drag myself to work. Then had a long weekend in which I was definitely manic, feeling like I had all the answers etc... I just got myself off of a fentyal binge to suboxne. But last night I realized that the mess I'm on are not working at all. Like my brain mustered all it's strength to put the chemicals in place to wave its hand up in the air like hey...this shit is not working!! @29 I started on Lamictal, abilify sent me into a crazy side effect state that the doc was raising and lowering my arm if I remember correctly. When I moved to another state in my 30's they said major depressive disorder not bipolar and started upping Lamictal and adding seroquil Celexa wellibutrin slowly until up to today. Last night in my clarity of not up or down I went to go take my meds and when I looked at the bottles I was confused, I know I have to take it due to a necessity of titration but wtf I was so...... I don't know sad. I feel like I need advice of people that live it rather than doctors who study it......
Last night I think my brain created the proper chemicals to put me in a state of normalcy. I just got over a depressed episode (not sure of duration) but remember barely being able to drag myself to work. Then had a long weekend in which I was definitely manic, feeling like I had all the answers etc... I just got myself off of a fentyal binge to suboxne. But last night I realized that the mess I'm on are not working at all. Like my brain mustered all it's strength to put the chemicals in place to wave its hand up in the air like hey...this shit is not working!! @29 I started on Lamictal, abilify sent me into a crazy side effect state that the doc was raising and lowering my arm if I remember correctly. When I moved to another state in my 30's they said major depressive disorder not bipolar and started upping Lamictal and adding seroquil Celexa wellibutrin slowly until up to today. Last night in my clarity of not up or down I went to go take my meds and when I looked at the bottles I was confused, I know I have to take it due to a necessity of titration but wtf I was so...... I don't know sad. I feel like I need advice of people that live it rather than doctors who study it......