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Feast in the Garden of evil
Come into my world, feast in my place,
Show yourself, don't hide, reveal your face,
As you tear it up, break it down,
Feast on my remains, whilst acting the clown,
You want and somehow need my self-destruction,
Your physical form is invisible to me but I see you're the devil's son
Break me into pieces, eat each one,
You're so angelic, you're special; really you're Simply a con
Break it down, smash this place up,
Spill the devil's juice from nature's beastly cup,
Break it down, smash this place up, while;
Vomiting up the remains of the victims fate, out come the bile,
Walk the path of blood, fell the heat on the skin,
Drink the pain and misery, enjoy this little sin,
Smash down the walls,
Tear down the place as evil calls
Drink in blissful of satisfaction when viewing the wreckage,
All broken now, all scatted, doing so took no age,
Now in your vicious mercy
repenting fails and ugliness is hidden in the beauty one can only see.
Evey 30/01/2015
Angelic Enemy
Has my best interest at heart
Eyes sharp, aims for me with a perfect sharp secretive dart
Like kryptonite
Delivers destruction with a deadly bite
Eats at the soul
Like a cancer first visual signs start with the a single mole
Is this a coalition?
Or simple disruption,
An angel appearing within those eyes,
Or fire, darkness – a simple warning of a volcanic eruption?
Is everything as it appears
Or is the devil in disguise?
Is nature’s sky about to burst into tears?
Invisible storms, a mask being the deep blue skies
Is the devil weeping?
Evil tears into the angelic skin
Or are angels leaping
For the battle of pain and sorrow, striving to win
Is everything really how it may appear?
Or is there bad blood within a single tear?
Is everything really how it may appear?
Should one tread carefully, not step too near?
Evey
09/07/2011 (12:43)
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Burgle His Mind
I wonder what is in his world,
I wonder what is kept in his box,
I wonder where the golden key is,
I wonder what each compartment holds,
I wanna understand emotion,
What makes it tick?
I wanna understand emotion,
What is its ulterior motive?
I wanna understand emotion,
And what its job is for me,
What is his pain?
What is his happiness?
Why is his world so tight?
So different to mine,
Why haven’t I a key cut?
I wanna understand emotion,
What makes it tick?
I wanna understand emotion,
What is its ulterior motive?
I wanna understand emotion,
And its job is for me,
Do I break in and burgle his mind?
Will I need a ladder?
Or an emotional sword,
Do I scream or ignore,
Or wait patiently at the door?
I wanna understand emotion,
What makes it tick?
I wanna understand emotion,
What is its ulterior motive?
I wanna understand emotion,
And what its job is for me,
2004
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Knife of Hurt
No one knows how I feel,
Right now, scattered like orange peel,
Full of so many dreams,
No more, just endless means,
Sitting here with silent cries,
Pictured like stormy skies,
Fear of the unknown,
Just me here, all alone
Threatening to take her away,
As if she were a cat, just a stray,
Looking at me, judging me,
I am anxiously waiting what is to be,
I feel like I’m being ripped apart inside,
Tried so hard to prevent, this is why I lied,
Each morning I awake, it’s at me like a knife,
Reminding me that was another life,
I can’t help but push my loved ones away,
Like on a wrecked ship, casting them astray,
All I wanted was to be happy,
Yet it always goes wrong, I end up feeling crappy,
Why do I have to feel so much pain?
That leaves me all cast out and lame,
Why so bad does it hurt?
And why do I feel like a piece of dirt?
As I walk along,
I hope for a happier song,
To feel happy and good,
Without leaving others lying in the mud
11/06/2009
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Divided Self
Inside the body
Sits two demons, differences one cannot see,
Infected by good and evil
One shows such content and is so civil
The other full of bitterness, starts endless wars
The fights continues behind closed close doors
Inside, pulled in many a direction
Of nothingness and complex emotion
Try to live up to others’ desires
Becomes one’s own internal liar
This constant pull
From excitement all things dull
Brings about both confusion and yet simplicity
But are things really as our eye see
The constant strive for good
While hungering for blood
Drama fishing, yet peace hunting
The constant divided self – no one will ever win.
Evey 28/07/2014
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EADD Part 1
Yay, here we are - EADD,
What will be, will be
Sometimes there are some great fights,
Other times pictures are shown, of some great sights,
There are those with the music; foolsgold and Dan
There's some currently on a temp-ban
Some of us; we like a good drink
For some it turns snappy, others they just do not think
When Raas is around, there's a good debate,
But PTCH steps in "No debate, it's a conversation, mate"
Evey comes along having an Evetrum,
Leaving everyone angry and glum,
One minute we are all fighting,
The next minute we're all inviting
Come in you newbs, step right on in
All welcome, we great you, members, mods and admin
E A D D, E A D D
What will be, will be
We talk, bitch, hug, fight like a big family
But stick together when really needs be
Evey 11/06/2014
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The Bus
On the bus,
There is the usual fuss
On come the prams,
the OAPs, looking like dear little lambs
At the front is the bus driver, sometimes with a miserable face,
On he drives; gracefully or often in such a bloody disgrace,
Everyone, they sit there,
Some moan, some groan, some simply do not care,
Drives and Stops, on people come at each stop,
Whilst sometimes off others hop,
Yes it's the British bus, same whether; cold or in heat,
Get on and hurry up, either falling or sitting into a seat
Most people sit, some feeling grand,
Others too late, they must simply stand
Riding along on the bus, hearing its familiar roar
Knowing it won't be the last time, I'll be on this once more
Evey 11/06/2014
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Nature's Power
As one runs under no cover,
Has an intense feeling like no other
The wind blows through the air,
At that moment, one does not care,
Exercising in nature; in all its glory
Nature is illustrating a present story
One feels ace, good and empowered
Facing oneself is ace, better than being a coward
Run far, far into the sheet of exhilarating beauty
Feel everything around you and simply just be,
Try it if you dare,
Get some vitamin D in you, breathe in the natural air
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Nature's Child
As I walk on and on and on,
I'm conscious that, for so long I was wrong
Oh, for so long I ignored you so,
I stayed in, closed the curtains and became so low,
I forgot how my skin felt rapped around your natural air
And how it felt running with the wind rushing through my hair
You, I stopped paying attention and forgot to see,
You never forgot me so, but for that time you quietly let me be
I now know what I'm going to do,
Nature; I am coming back to you,
In your arms please embrace me once more,
Fill me with vitamin D, serenity, calmness and tranquillity as before.
Evey 11/06/2014
Paradox of Emotion
Emotions; so strong and powerful,
Intenses, sharp, electrifying, frightening, exciting; never dull;
In constant collision, drives attraction yet devision,
Hate is true love and love is true hate,
Are you ready for the rollacoaster ride of your life? It starts at the gate
The gate of paradox,
It feeds, it soothes, it needs, it wants, it closes down n locks,
The prison of complex emotion,
Consequences due for all that said and done,
The mind is now in flames, baby you're on fire,
It fed you quite a goose chase, you see - it was quite the liar,
Everything crumbles slowly to dust as the spirit begins to melt,
Feel it yea paradox it is that evil and good that's everything ever felt
One must stride forth, one must endeavour;
To cross over inevitability-alley; you forget see; the mind's far too clever,
Caged within those feuding feelings,
Wishing one was a bird, flying the skies with its helpful wings
Continuously prodding like multiple knives,
Emotional-paradox is enough to fill many lives,
Love and hate, hate and love are one and the same;
When one is imprisoned in the emotional-paradox game
01/02/2015
Stormy Calm
Its not needed
It's not wanted
But you know it
It is coming n someone's gna get hit
Sensing the coming storm,
Knowing its usual form
You are preparing,
You're internally swearing
You clench each palm,
But you know its needed to get your much needed calm,
You feel tense
But you know when over things will be ok, this you sense,
Cross-words,
Charging like several herds,
Fire blasts across the sky,
If you're loving this that's sure as a lie,
Hot and cold, hate n love collide,
Free this internal enemy I sure wanna hide,
Relief but full of emotional scars,
Oh 'eck pls ship me to Mars
Knowing I needed this,
Wishing it was something I could miss
But eh y'know without the storms ya can't get the calm,
You know it in your heart n in each cold palm,
Hate becomes love, love used to hate,
Now your my mate
But eh without the storms ya cant get the calm,
You feel in each palm,
You sense this,
But yea, the storm you wish ya could miss
(To be edits, will keep for now)
Evey 09/01/2015
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Struggled Expression
Wish I could express myself,
I just feel like an elf,
So insignificant, unworthy,
This, in me, is what I see,
No matter how much I try,
It's just like living s lie,
It's hit n miss,
Y'know, I just can't do this,
Basically a cell,
Inside is emotional hell,
One day I may matter,
Instead of being like seeds most would rather throw n scatter,
Putting on pretending realism,
Is just the wrong decision,
Cause no matter what is my song,
Guaranteed its always wrong,
Yes now the turned ones can gloat,
Because it's gone wrong you see it in what I've just wrote,
Feel bruised n down,
It's the usual sound,
All one needed was to self-express,
But it always ends in a mess
Evey 23/01/2015
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Energy Collision
Negativity's got me
In my eyes its anger I see
Negativity I feel
I'm on my knees, it makes me kneel
It's colliding it's fighting,
Yet together as they sing
Negativity had me,
It had me hot it has me so angry
Need to rise to see,
And feel true positivity,
It's there its within
Yet together they continue to sing
Need to rise above
Need to find internal love
Positivity I need thee
Positivity I yearn for thee
Negativity your strong full of such pain,
I need the strength to play a different game
The game that grants true serenity,
Positivity I need thee.
When the fog is so strong,
And every turning is wrong
When the exhaustion is to much,
And the energy is to painful touch,
One needs to internally fight,
The clinging-demon to reach the light
For negativity to no longer have me,
Positivity I want thee,
Can no longer possess the negative energy that plagues me
Positivity I need thee
Positivity please have me
Evey 12/11/2014
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Energy Split (needs editing)
It is two yet it is also one
Divided, yet forever cast into life's song,
It is everywhere,
Right down to thought n the clothes we wear,
Which one you activate is your choice,
Think it through carefully, use your internal voice.
Your action impact on everything,
Your happiness, your health, n what you internally sing,
Every second, minute, hour they fight,
If they were a visual they'd be an interesting sight
You know I'm talking our two forms of energy,
Negativity and positivity; is what I feel around me,
The collision yet comparison,
Hate is love n love is hate,
You see this yea, see it, it's never too late.
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Spiritual-Reject
For so long I shut the door on you,
I let negativity in too,
Soon I started to forget,
Let down my safety net,
In came the anger,
outwardly I gave my surrender
Out came the hatred,
Burst of negativity; spiritual-destruction in my misery I hid
It spread n spread n spread,
Like a cancer it toxified me, filled others with dread,
Was on a negative path,
Less n less I'd laugh,
Each spell struck like a strong wave,
Others misunderstood; why don't you just behave?
Flying in came each dart,
Darkening my heart,
Of you I forgot; as I got further into misery,
Cause it needed company, don't you see?
Once more I'm back on the path,
Once more I'm finding out how to laugh.
26/01/2015
Wrote aged 16.
Regrets
Regrets is when time is too late,
Regrets are memories of bad we have done,
Regrets are full of loneliness and discontentment,
Regrets are of yesterdays, of the days we have wasted
So full of emtiness come thevregrets of our past,
Time ticks andvticks away,
But history keeps repeating itself, again and again,
I can't stop this happening, again and again,
Oh why do I make the same mistakes?
That I have regretted so many times before,
Yesterday I wasted so much time,
That was so valuable,
Help me get away,
From the regrets that darken my life,
That take away my love from others,
And the feelings in return.
23/10/1996
Twisted Reality
I sit here feeling guilty
For letting the frustration consume me,
Destroy me
Distort what I see and confuse me
When something becomes too much,
Far too much,
Everything else is moving away from my touch,
It's drifting, you see,
It's drifting, far, far away from me,
Rinse n repeat; It's repetition y'see
The way things have always been, always will be,
The beginning, always so powerful and magnetic,
Drawing me in, poisoning me; later it will make me sick,
The end; a broken reality,
Repeated misery, yes repeated misery,
The twisted fatality,
Why won't it let me be happy?
Overtaking, forsaking, addiction,
Before realisation hits, it's already said and done,
Balance and moderation - both reflect a foreign concept,
My loves; they were never kept,
Because everyone loved n mattered,
Got lost and scattered,
Things loved are forsaken,
Robbed and taken
Repetition; this twisted reality,
Past is invisible warning that the eye can never see,
28/01/2015
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