foolsgold, you should not take any action of significance until your mind is a bit more at peace. by that i don't mean until everything is ok, because that might not happen, but i mean that stress makes people's logic go to shit. and you are stressed.
hope you're feeling better soon, Joe.
my mom's sad. i went over there for breakfast this morning but it didn't seem like anyone was home. i was on the back porch making a phone call and heard her calling my name. their yard is huge and she was hundreds of yards away. i was watching the ground for dog poop and didn't look up until i had gotten to her. she was balling hysterically. her phone, a blanket, and gardening tools were on the ground. this was not a place in the yard where gardening is necessary, so i thought she was like having a mental breakdown and was about to tell me my dad's dead. but then she told me her cat died. i didn't laugh, but i was smiling. she's really sad about it though. and my dad is out of town. i hung out for a couple hours. before i left she said she was ok and she was about to go walking with her friend. her friend had just called, but my mom hadn't called her back yet. they better go walking. and if all i do tonight is watch a movie, i'll go over there and watch it with her. people and their fucking pets. i think it's because all of her kids have grown up and my dad's still working and even though she volunteers and keeps busy and used to work, a big part of her career was raising kids and that's over. she's really smart and motivated, and maybe that's pulling on her. she's done great things with her life. hope she cheers up quickly. maybe she'll even go out with friends tonight.
this is relatable.
