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Harm Reduction The Pain Management Megathread (Chronic and Acute Pain Discussion) v6

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Sorry youre depressed banana!! We should go bowling cause im feeling same way. Very depressed and lack of energy. I should be used to it but i dont thinkbone does get used to thhis horrible feeling. Hang in there sister and let me know if i can help?
 
This is my first time back in many days. As if chronic .& acute pain wasn't enough I caught conjunctivitis and nasty, nasty fatigue & exhaustion as well as an itchy rash.

Before anyone asks, no, no dr. Partly as my physician is a three hr round trip & I can barley be on my feet ten mins w/out feeling faint & need a nap.

I'm sure it's viral being around kids all last w/end & exhaustion due to following up on my RTA accident.. Weeks (mths) on end full of appts + lawyers + insurance company etc will drive anyone's body to need a break!

Sweetchildofmine goes on hols with my folks tmorro, as much as I'll miss her I need the extra sleep time & to catch up on postponed appts. Two wks is a long trip & I'll miss her with all my heart!!

Sorry to all going through more crap on this thread & to those I promised to PM.

England, if not for taking opiates (as I know u can't with work), what's the idea of a pain clinic? I know they're mostly multidisciplinary now, but u need pain relief right?!?

Best to all others, I'll be back soon.

Rtp ❤️
 
Just to add, as I see several others suffering above..

My friends think it's either ptsd or ADD I'm suffering psychologically from as I can't focus and go from one extreme to the other.

Earlier I mentioned that my psych wanted to refer me on. Has anyone had similar issues? I'd love a diagnosis but am adverse to so many ADs, it's simply after this hit & run I'm not myself.

Proving it however, is a major thing.

Rtp xx
 
Rtp, i have no advice as ive never been thru what youre going thru but it breaks my heart to hear all this. I just wish you could feel better. I hope someone on here has some advice for you. Conjunctivs? That doesnt sound good. I cant believe your Dr is so far away. Is there no Drs who can treat your condition closer? Guess not or youd be going to them. I wish your return to heath soon. We are all here for you?
 
I would LOVE to go virtual bowling. Dixie, another field trip! Can you imagine me whipping a bowling ball? I use to love bowling.

RtP, how long ago was the accident? You can PM me if you want to discuss in full. Not a diagnostician, but have accurately determined PTSD, ADHD, bi-polar and Teuretts. I hope you're feeling ok. Have to run.
 
God I hate it when I make the effort to write a lengthy PM only then too be told it can't be sent!!

Grrr

Englandgz, SKR, let me know if u didn't get my msgs, for now I'm truly confused if they were or weren't sent after deleting much junk.

Rtp xx
 
That happens to me all the time Rtp. I feel like throwing my phone. Now i always check my junk and delete before writing a book. Hope youre ok
 
^ I drop my phone all the time now let alone need to throw it! Though I used to many times whenever I was in long term r'ships. "Don't wanna talk, bam now we can't) lol.

Funny, the guy that I last had a true connection with,( & probably always will), tests me every now and then & today it was again.

That over the years we've become best friends. I'm not sexually attracted to anyone, furthest from my thoughts...

Honestly I think I'm best left to my own devices and mothering sweetchildofmine :)

Rtp xx
 
No RTP I didn't get a message from you other than the one a while a go but I didn't think you are refering to that one as I answered it so you would have know I got it...

And "not sexually attracted to anyone"???

Well you've clearly not met me yet! (Joke :))
 
%) Hey PEEPS...The shades are my way of "willing" the sunshine to return here. We've had nothing but torrential rains for days now. It's so dark and gloomy outside. That (for me) contributes to the evil toad of depression.

englandgz...I liked your (joke). It's essential to not only laugh, but somehow find the humor amongst misery! How are you feeling, my brotha? Thanks for your post, as I like "meeting" new (to me) folks. I pray your burn is healing as we speak. Surely you are taking care of yourself and getting rest, as I would think work would be a no-no for now. I admire your profession, as I've spent more than a little time in the back of an ambulance. You guys save lives as you witness RL nightmares! My BIL is in the same industry, about to retire. It has taken its toll on his emotions, though he projects the "tough guy" persona.

Anna...I'm so very sorry you're feeling so down. Me, too. I can only recommend the usual bag of tricks, although none are working for me right now. Come on over, doll baby. There's a recliner (with heat/massage) with your name on it! Of course, "binkys" are close by to snuggle beneath. Strawberry cake for supper sound good?

Life for me is not something I "live". I simply "endure" this painful existence, waiting for it to be over. I cannot linger in that mindset, though. I practice what I preach. I baked a cake and served it to 35+ residents for my mom's 90th birthday on Sunday. Special thanks to hubby for his help, as per usual, no siblings showed up for the party.

Frequent trips to the nursing home are both a blessing and a curse, without going too deeply into my personal abyss. On the one hand, I see how the story ends (not happy). On the other hand, I leave with a renewed sense of gratitude that I can leave.

8o A little excitement here, as I encountered my first snake of the season! I was about to refill the water for the birds out back. The vessel sits atop an old bourbon barrel. As I reached to empty the remnants, I saw something underneath next to where I just placed my hand. Upon closer inspection, it was a coiled snake that wasn't moving. Slow bowel be damned, as I could have shite myself! I caught him with barbecue tongs, then snipped his head off with a knife. I "googled" a photo of what it said was a baby Rat snake. Yes, I know they're not poisonous. However, we have extremely poisonous snakes on our property (pond/frogs attract) from Copperheads to Cottonmouth Moccasins. I don't play. I kill whatever I encounter. The snake stories I could tell...two of which occurred INSIDE my house...YIKES!?!

closeau, RTP, SKR, KM13, and so many others...Sending healing hugs your way! :)
 
Thank you Dixi!!

I love my job but it can be stressful sometimes....I had too see a councillor earlier this year as one or two things that I witnessed over the xmas got tho much for me but I'm ok now.

My leg isnt too good and I've spent a couple days in the hospital as they thought I had blood poisoning. I'm ofg work for a while and seeing the pain specialist Wednesday regarding my main chronic pain issue.. Still don't know what he will say and whether or not he will want me to go back on opiates again. I'm looking at other jobs in emergency care management that won't need me to drive emergency vehicles but I'm not sure of that's what I want.

So sorry you should feel that way about life being something you should endure rather than live because of your pain.....that's awful....sending you a hug (((<3)))...

My pain problems are nothing compared to you guys....my other problems however are a worry....I'm really down right now. I'm all on my own as me and my girlfriend broke up last year and I have no family left and it seems few friends. I'm very lonely...

I'm very sad at the moment :(
 
Oh, englandgz...Please don't ever feel that your pain or problems are any less significant than any of ours. As I always say...It's not a competition...Pain is not a pissing contest, huh? I will go back and read your story regarding your chronic pain. I remember that you said you had dealt with pain prior to suffering the leg burns. It's good to see that you are seeking a specialist this week. I hope all goes well for you.

As for the career change...I can only imagine the high intensity and stress levels. There would be no shame in saying hey, this isn't for me! I'm sure that your experience in the field should open other doors for you. There is such a lack of compassion here in the U.S. medical industry. I don't see it getting better.

And oh my word, the way the elderly are just literally thrown away (not only by the industry, but their family). There have been 10+ administrators within 10 years of my mom's nursing home. They are in/out like revolving doors. Simply no accountability IME. There is tremendous need for love and compassion in senior care. It hurts my heart to see the neglect...

I empathize with your sadness and your loneliness. I am blessed to have my husband of 35 years (36 in July). We have extended family, but we're not close. True friends IMO are hard to find. I have 3 sisters that should be God's gifted best friends for me, but they aren't. Their husbands are controlling and my sisters submit. No victims, just volunteers in those relationships. I am extremely independent and my husband admires that about me.

Please know that you are not alone here. That's important. We look after one another and truly feel the pain of our fellow peeps. We all cope with our pain and depression IRL as best we can. We come here to snuggle in and feel the warmth of others who understand. Thank you for the hug! Right back atcha! Funny, but not...My "heart" will not "print" on my posts. I've tried MANY times over the past months, only to see it disappear...dunno why?
 
Hey thanks Dixi! I got your email I just have to respond. I'm always using my wife laptop so I have to fit in with her where possible. It's morning here and all are still asleep (Wife and toddler) thankfully lol. I lost a massive post in response to Anna 'da' Banana in this thread this morning so I'll have to rewrite to update yawl on my situation which appears to be dramatically changing, there is hope where there once wasn't.

To all the new comers (Since I've appeared) I hope you have all found a place to rest your weary, pain addled heads in this "Greatest thread on Bluelight" space. You will be cared for and advised as best you can be, not by Doctors, but by those who have seen 100's of Doctors and lived the pain game, are living the pain game. Stories some more harrowing than others will be heard, and experienced, but there's a soft and gentle treatment towards one another in this thread that you may not find elsewhere. We can try and self analyse our own stories, lives and coping mechanisms and have others at your willing try to analyse what you share and what against their own experiences. We're all friends here, even if we slash each other apart in other threads lol.

Welcome to the Safe Haven, where Hugz 'n' Drugz are given freely.....well not the drugs cos who the fuck doesn't run short each month he he, but hugs nonetheless. I hope you find some solutions especially where others have not cos we can and do learn from you too oh ye new comer. I'll duck in again with my health update. Take care ya'll (How's my pronunciation Dixi ;))
 
Oh, englandgz...Please don't ever feel that your pain or problems are any less significant than any of ours. As I always say...It's not a competition...Pain is not a pissing contest, huh? I will go back and read your story regarding your chronic pain. I remember that you said you had dealt with pain prior to suffering the leg burns. It's good to see that you are seeking a specialist this week. I hope all goes well for you.

As for the career change...I can only imagine the high intensity and stress levels. There would be no shame in saying hey, this isn't for me! I'm sure that your experience in the field should open other doors for you. There is such a lack of compassion here in the U.S. medical industry. I don't see it getting better.

And oh my word, the way the elderly are just literally thrown away (not only by the industry, but their family). There have been 10+ administrators within 10 years of my mom's nursing home. They are in/out like revolving doors. Simply no accountability IME. There is tremendous need for love and compassion in senior care. It hurts my heart to see the neglect...

I empathize with your sadness and your loneliness. I am blessed to have my husband of 35 years (36 in July). We have extended family, but we're not close. True friends IMO are hard to find. I have 3 sisters that should be God's gifted best friends for me, but they aren't. Their husbands are controlling and my sisters submit. No victims, just volunteers in those relationships. I am extremely independent and my husband admires that about me.

Please know that you are not alone here. That's important. We look after one another and truly feel the pain of our fellow peeps. We all cope with our pain and depression IRL as best we can. We come here to snuggle in and feel the warmth of others who understand. Thank you for the hug! Right back atcha! Funny, but not...My "heart" will not "print" on my posts. I've tried MANY times over the past months, only to see it disappear...dunno why?

Thank you Dixi....

Its not really a career change as such as I would still need to remain a registered paramedic and be on call but not so much physical stuff....

This is all I've known for a long time and I enjoy it. To be honest I wouldn't really consider doing anything else really I'm just feeling low...

Thank you anyway though hun.

My pain stems from reactive polyarthritis.

Its funny being thought of as a newcomer when I started posting on this thread over three years ago but I guess after such a long break from posting here (I usually post in EADD nowadays)....I kind of am :)

Oh by the way a "heart" is an < flowed by a 3 with no space inbetween....ie. < 3 but without the space..

Take care all <3
 
Englandgz, a man in uniform aaaaand an accent might turn my head ;)

Sorry you're feeling sad & alone. Can you see the counsellor again that you saw a while back? I know that won't take away the loneliness, but it might be cathartic to spill irl.

Think I mentioned in another post that my psych had to refer me on as she continues to feel I suffered a neurological issue from the accident.

At our first appt last October she had said she'd "feel negligent" treating me until I'd had the all clear from a neurologist. My skull CT was normal so we proceeded.

I've had a bit of a wait to get in, then my first appt booked I had to cancel as sweetchildofmine was unwell & home for a few days.

So another ten or so days to see the neuropsych :( feeling a bit abandoned.

Good news though, I was to call today to find out my appt time for my regular physician,- but the receptionist called me first asking if I could come in thurs as the psychiatrist will be cmng in for the first time to practice from her rooms. ( it's the one I travel to, but she's worth it)!

Have been trying to secure a teleconference with this psych for mths, my dr referred me as she knew it'd be much more convenient for me (not to mention extremely rare). I knew she was trying to get hold of him also, but not that it was in regard to wrkng from her office.

So that works well, I was due to see her Friday, but will see the psych first then my physician.

Then I travel back next tues, even further,- far side of the city, but so blessed my friends husband is taking me over in his car. He's just had cancer of the bowel removed but so fortunate the surgeons got it all & he is having two yrs off wrk & three mthly check ups. Lucky guy. He kinda gets how mixed up I am as he's had such a scare plus pain etc.

It's finally for the snazzy new sitting/standing MRI that I've been waiting mths to have approved by our type of transport accident commission, road insurance for anyone in a vehicle accident.

Closeau, what's this mystery huh? Been up to smthng you shouldn't have hmmm??

Dixi you are the ray of sunshine on this thread. You do so well & I think I understand how you're feeling about life. I'm a bit like "is this it"?

Each morning I wake and think, Another Day? Though I have my baby to always adore & be accountable for so that keeps me going each day.

She's just gone on a two wk trip with my folks 4wding up through some beautiful areas into the centre of australia. I travelled a lot as a youngster, so I'm grateful she has the opportunity to do such things as well.

I can do a direct flight from here to warmer beachy places, but 4wding & camping has never been my thing lol.

I miss her heaps & soon they'll have no mobile phone reception so I'll not even hear her sweet "love you's" for a few days. Sounds terrible but with all my appts it makes life less stressful worrying if I'll be home on time or who's collecting her from school this time etc.

Btw, tmorro see my local neurologist for a follow up appt (after almost six mths from my initial one), re: my hand numbness which has developed into a massive problem over that time, & to see what he has to say about my seizure a few mths ago.

I was actually even admitted as a private patient under his care, but never even sighted him. Shitty care in this "second largest city in the state of victoria", even paying huge $$ for private health insurance!!

SKR, look forward to hearing what good is coming into your life. You certainly deserve it. Where there's life there's hope,

Rtp xx
 
Wow, now that a post people. Good job Rtp. Some bad stuff but it seems tons of good stuff. Im glad youll see your Drs and hopefully feel better soon.

So like where do you live in the desert? Why so much travel? Guess thats just the way it is.

My mystery post. I forgot. Yes, ive been a bad boy and well leave it at that. Always PM me and ill fill you in. Not here.

Dixi, youre the best!!! Truly a caring person.

Rtp i hope you feel better soon. Im rooting for you as we all are. Good luck
 
I missed an appointment with the councillor a few weeks ago and asked him to ring me arrainge a new one but he never rang back..

Thing is work paid for him and the NHS isn't exactly known for spending huge sums of money on councilors for their staff....

On the plus side I hobbled into the station to see the guys today and it was someone's birthday so I scored several Krispy Kreme doughnuts (one I brought home for after my dinner.....was nice :))

Pain clinic tomorrow morning....
 
Lol Closeau, I don't live in the desert! My folks are into 4wding & have taken sweetchildofmine on a two wk trip over mountain ranges and into the centre of our wide brown land. Just spoke to her briefly from a payphone, she's going to feed dingoes today so pretty happy about that!

I live in the second largest city in our state, close to the famous Bells Beach. The care here is substandard and the wait between even private appts is usually around six months. Then there's extremely long periods should you require any tests/imaging.

Especially since my hand numbness/pins & needles just never went away one morning like it always had post accident, I have a dr who enjoys "challenging cases" plus we get along famously comparing online fashions & recent insta pics lol. Things just happen faster being the capital city, & she knows the right specialists to get me in with.

Had I been left in the care of local doctors, I'd only just now be finding out that I don't have carpal tunnel.

Wouldn't have had the facet joint injections in my neck, been referred on to a neurosurgeon, be undergoing extensive physio by a spinal specialist or been referred for this new type of MRI.

Most likely expect I'd have been told nothing showed up & it'll come good with time & nothing more done about it and no where to turn to for other opinions or options.

Let us know how u go with the pain clinic Englandgz, I'm at the neurologists rooms now,

Rtp xx
 
Ugh. Feeling blah, too. Let's all be blah together here, people.

Dixie, you're always good for our virtual hang outs. I would be on that couch in a second! I can't for the life of me understand the stupid people. How can your family be so uncaring? My husband's family is the same way. All four children scattered as far from my crazy MIL as possible. There are only 2 grandchildren on his side, as most of them swore to never have children. We weaseled her way here for a couple of years on Mother's Day to visit, and not ONE of the siblings called. Even as crazy bitchy and abusive as she was, that's still sad. Like you, I do some things for myself, not for the person on the receiving end. You would never treat someone as badly as your own mother treated you, but you give, because that's who YOU are.

I do do wish we could all teleport and hang out. I would bake us some good edibles...we could watch bad tv, lie around and not be judged for not wanting to 'go for a walk!' 'Get some air!' Get the air that's coming out of my ass, since walking hurts sometimes. ;)
Sorry. Tired of listening to other people's bad ideas.

Love you guys. Hugs and drugs!
 
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