Closeau is good. I chat with him all the time we are homies so he's good. He has been helping me out too with the talking, I had a rough few months but he has too I think. I was literally spending weeks bedridden because of the pain and withdrawal. I hadn't had a dose increase for a couple years.
I want this thread but in real life! I totally think there should be like chronic pain support groups that are kinda like AA meetings but for just people to vent about their pain. But hey they'd probably be watched by the undercovers to make sure no pills are exchanged. lol.
I am doing great now, I got an increase on my oxy that I really needed. Everyone was understanding of it except the pharmacist, who questioned everything and put a hold on my faxed scripts. I am more relaxed and accepting of the pain in general now.
I already have my life back on track with the higher dose. Managing my pain really well. I'm happy, I can smile. I can ride my bike, cook myself meals, and apply for career jobs. I have a good doc who I trust. I get oxy's in a country that is completely stupid about the way they treat chronic pain people so I'm lucky for that because I need them like I need food and water. There are people like me out there with no treatment for sure, I really pushed to get help and it was years to get into a professional.
I'm just trying to cut back on the weed now. It's not too big a deal or anything but I'd like to cut back now that my pain is managed and I'm not as stressed.
Meanwhile, this is what the news says:
http://www.theglobeandmail.com/life...ain-more-likely-to-die-study/article30445218/
People taking long acting opioids are more like to die they say. Just what the fuck is the point of this? All they do is demonize pills in the media, there is no constructive anything. I had no idea this country was demonizing the drugs this bad. It's an article about the ineffectively of opioids in chronic pain management, or something about how they are associated in general with more death, but there is a picture of a seizure of fake old oxycontin. Like fentanyl or w-18 based pills, really gross stuff.
That's what the fuck they are associating with people who are in severe chronic pain and use these types of pills for relief. I was honestly offended by that bullshit, especially the picture of fake oxycontin pills when it's supposed to be a scientific article. It's one of those studies where the researchers are paid to deliberately seek out anything negative they can find about a drug. Like how they do with cannabis sometimes, but this is just insane. Fuck whoever writes garbage like that for a living.
Time is different for a lot of people in pain. I will take a shorter life over fucking suffering more. And potentially, I will accomplish more in this shorter life.
I personally feel like so far my pain management has been a rough ride, but overall success story compared to how I was before. You never hear the shit in the news. They never mention the poor 20-something who got hurt in a sports injury, and was suicidal but happy now and even working a job on pain meds. They never bother to mention that some people get amazing relief from these pills, when nothing else works, and usually if something goes wrong, it is the fault of the patient abusing the meds. They don't mention that the only real side effect, even with heavy use, apart from the dependency is constipation. Apart from like a couple others, maybe hormone imbalance. Generally they are very physically safe even long term and on my current doses of oxy, I mean I'd feel comfortable taking my entire daily dose all at once as IR and I would be nowhere near OD. I've never overdosed or even vomited (or even been nauseated) over years of use. Never have I felt that my life was in danger. I get worse cognitive side effects from smoking weed (which are like nil).
It's just really frustrating to me, because I know people read the Globe and Mail around here it's reputable. They have so many articles on opioids, all negative and designed to generate hysteria. It totally sucks because it creates a huge stigma around users, even legal medical users. Not that being on oxycodone is hard to hide or anything. Oh... unless I'm in withdrawals haha. Then it's in plain sight.
But it's going to limit access to opioids, that is what it's designed to do. Likely not for me, but especially for new patients; it's a damn shame I think because the meds are so effective and a lot of people want them for pain relief but can't get them. For me it's the difference between life or death. Oxy gave me my life back, at least temporarily. I probably wouldn't be here, without it. Sure I'm dependent as all hell now but I had NO life AT ALL before.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Yeah...smfh as always with the "cheezy" posts. Slow Mobius is right.
