I bolded and italicized the important points because I realize its very long, the other type is just backstory and other meds i've tried
Background about injury and med's
Okay, I got robbed a while back, thrown to the ground, stomped (4 broken ribs and alot of shoulder damage), then upper left hand corner of my chest was smashed with a cinderblock(3 ribs broken in multiple placess, lung damage, collar bone poking through skin) 2 surgerys
(Thank god for free healthcare in Canada)
I started off on 2x24mg 1x12 hydromorphone a day [am 1x24, 3-4pm 1x12, 1x24mg before bed]
(I had a high tolerance and was a bad person and on alot of opiates before, but i was honest with family doctor and gained his trust, he's a great man, I volunteered to do pillcounts and pick up my perscription weekly instead of monthly, but he knows im in too rough shape to sell and i'd kill myself if i ran out early, thats how bad the sick is) t
Then switched to Fentanyl (125mcg/H 1x16.8mg patch 1x3.8mg patch)
(the mg dosages are total, its a weird brand my pharmacy carries, the 100mcg/h patches contain 6.8mg more then the duragesic, weird eh?)
Now, I had problems where i would wake up sick, in pain (but the sickness i've always found worse then the pain)
5 or 6 months ago I switched to 2x80mg oxy and 1x40mg [1x80mg AM, 1x40mg3-4pm 1x80pm]
Total time on these painkillers about 2-3 years
Now,My pain has been always controlled, (If im not on my meds my left arm gets too sore to move sometimes even when im on its to sore to raise above my head, but its very livable)
The real problem im having is these two things (I figured this would be a good place to ask)
Questions
First; the severe constipation, I take laxatives and stool softeners to no effect, but i regularly get stomach pain from it (When im very constipated It bulges out my stomach and I can feel it under my abs, I get very embarrassed and think everyone can tell, I bleed every time (like drip dirp till the toilet water is pretty dark red) I use the washroom in that manner and honestly, I dread going to the washroom (I have to use enema's once or twice a week and only go about every two days)
I can be very doped up, even on triple my average dose (buy from friend not doublin my own script) and its still amazingly painful.
As depressing as it sounds i've even had to result to the dreaded handballing when I can to is bleed (When i have to handball its like im peeing blood out my ass). I can't even go to public restrooms or at work (Holding it in is no problem) because it takes so long and im embarassed someone will see the blood ring i leave on the toilet.
I wanted to ask this long ago but I was far to embarassed but its getting worse and worse, I honestly lose about 4-5 diabetic syringes full of blood each time.
CAN ANYONE SUGGEST SOMETHING I CAN DO?
Second Question
Even taking my oxy right before bed, i'll always wake up sick , i've mentioned this to my doctor and he told me to research some drugs (he's a great man, he knows im not an idiot and would rather have me obtain drugs safely then through the black market, I routinely donate money to his office anonymously [not as a bribe or anything but because I don't pay him because we're in canada]
He doesn't have the license to prescribe methadone or bupe so i'm looking for suggestions for a drug thats both a strong painkiller (I get pain with every breath I take without painkillers basically, and no one knows if I ever won't) and has a long half-life (I don't like fent even though you wear it for 3 days, 1 had a bad experience when a weeks worth of my patches were stolen by a now ex girlfriend and the withdrawal, coupled with the pain, have me in such fear of it, i can w/d from pain and oxys standing on my head, the worst day of 200mg of oxy a day is better then the first 6 hours without 125mcg/h of fent)
Long story short; I need a strong pain killer that last a long time, cause currently I always feel just a little sick before the next dose every day. Bupe and Methadone are not options as my doctor does not have a license, but anything else is on the table, wouldnt hurt if it gave me a little buzz to boot
(I keep on the schedule of am, 3-4pm then bedtime because if i take it as soon as i feel bad, i'd have to take an extra pill a day, so i just feel a tiny bit sick inbetween doses instead of ALOT sick if i ran out early, and if I don't take right before bed, i have these godawful dreams where im robbing pharmacys, people, anything for drugs and right when im about to shoot or sniff it I wake up feeling horrible.)
Can anyone reccomend a strong painkiller that i'll have to only take once or twice a day (probably twice is easier, don't ask) that will last a very long time so I don't feel even a touch of sickness between doses. Something perfect would last 12-14 hours , be a strong pain killer and taken when I wake up, and taken again around supper time, does such a drug exist?
(again if you skimmed, he cannot perscribe bupe or methadone and it is VERY VERY HARD to find another family doctor where I live, i'd be put on a 3 year wiating list just to try for bupe or done, so im looking for a more attainable option)
(currently I always feel a bit sick but no pain inbetween doses of oxy, seriously swallowing them hole or snorting or even shooting doesnt seem to make a difference in terms of length, infact swallowing an 80 makes it feel like it last even shorter cause I can hardly feel it and feel sick again in 4-5 hours, where shooting or sniffing is 7-8)