Nothing 'weird' IMO there Tantric, you make a good point. I have good friend who is a Bhuddist, happy, clever, relaxed and wise.. though he regularly drinks truly frightening amounts of beer at lunchtime - I have always been intrigued, but never felt it right to ask him why? I am very drawn towards Bhuddism, but being rather lazy, hedonistic and weak willed, have shied away from it, only paying lip service to its high ideals and inspired philosophy. You actually mention one there which has been a source of great trouble to me over the years - dopamine. My body definitely produces far too little, and unless I take (chemical) measures to boost 'production', I end up in my natural state which is acutely and miserably depressed and tired of being tired of being tired. In that state I am literally good for nothing, utterly anergic, negative and hopelessly low in mind, body and spirit to achieve anything worthwhile, or develop in any way whatsoever. If that is the 'suffering' which some say is good for the soul, I have certainly done my time during this life, and am heartily sick of it! Suicidally so I have to say, and the temptation to put an end to this incarnation has led to me trying just that, more than once... but obviously without success.
I actually have no fear of death, I know, quite literally, death is not the end, merely a change of state.. I've even seen it! Any ideas or suggestions would be most welcome?