Yeah, I have a generalized social anxiety disorder, as well. I've taken so much shit for it, and none of it works. Benzos just make me tired and irritated, so I don't even bother with them. I have a full bottle of 10mg valium sitting in my cabinet untouched. I tried them for w/d's and it just made the mental (yes, mental, as odd as that is) effects worse. The bad thing is, I work in a pharmacy which is a total mind fuck. I took another one, which makes my total dose 150mg. It hasn't been long enough for the second one to kick in yet but I have to say, I am feeling quite nice right about now. I just don't give a fuck. Haha. I have like, NO sense of impending doom - which I always do. I should have made my name Murphy's Law - that is so me.
And, I definitely agree with you on the whole new dr. gig. But, I just moved to a new city, where I know NO ONE, nor do any of my peeps from my old place know any decent doctors out here. I moved from the straight up ghetto to a snobby uber rich neighborhood. Ha, we totally don't fit in, but I don't give a shit.
Another shitty thing is, my boyfriend is on this shit, too. Not the lyrica, but the opiates (I have to add in real quick - my house smells DELICIOUS right now - yum, lasagna! And I totally slammed a box of Special K, DRY mind you..and wondered why. Then I read the whole increased appetite thing and had to laugh.) ANYWAY - He's been on them a lot longer than I, he's even been on oxy's and was put in the ER for a heart attack from the w/d's from it. We both seen the same doctor at that time - the same one that completely cut us off from the vics and shit - and actually, just a few weeks ago, we found out that he lost his license to practice. So I'm assuming that he got in deep with another patient and cut us and probably several other people off too, just out of precaution.
To be honest, I was taking the opiates for pain, at first. I have nerve damage in my legs and lower back from a herniated disc. They never really did much for the pain, but they got me high at first so I just forgot to care. Now, or at least after, I was taking them for the sole purpose of not going through w/d and being able to live my life feeling like a semi- normal person on a day to day basis. I think tramadol is an amazing drug - not for pain, but for w/d's and anxiety. It has far from 'cured' me from my usual anxious feelings, but it has definitely helped more than any benzo or anti depressant (just had a serious brain fart there) than I've ever taken.
As for the Lyrica, I will probably take it as needed at least until I get my rx filled, or I get my check so I can call someone up. Gah! I hate doing that. Fuckers wanna tax you out the ass and shit!8)