Hi all,
I've used this site via Google for years but just signed up for an account today. I'm 40+ y/o and safe to say I have tried most everything out there, generally multiple times... not too familiar with the newer "designer" stuff tho. Opiates have always been my weakness, and have been on benzo's since I was 14. Currently prescribed 5mg of alprazolam and 30 mg of diazepam daily. Also have plenty of Ambien IR, flexaril, seroquel, neurontin, and adderall around. I was in a car accident 7 ears ago and was left with a couple pf squashed discs and sporadic, horrible sciatica. Most recently developed carpal tunnel syndrome symptoms, scheduled to see a neurologist in a couple of weeks. Was given Lyrica initially after my car accident and found no relief at all. No anything. When the carpal tunnel stuff started I was given neurontin and worked my way up to 600 mg 3x per day. It went from not helping at all to aggravating the problem to the point I couldn't hold a cup or tie my shoes. Nothing pleasant at all. Tapered off with minimal w/d.
So, here's the question I have today. I saw a commercial for lyrica earlier and where I had tuned them out in the past, today I heard the disclaimer that it had potential for abuse in patients with such a history, and recalled I had a bunch of 50's and 100's stored away. After reading the first 10 pages of this thread I decided to take 800 mg. Opened the capsules and parachuted them. That was about 45 minutes ago and no effect so far. Any suggestions on potentiators, I'm thinking of taking a couple of benadryl, but with my other supplies, wondered if any thing else may do better. I am at a time of the anniversary of the passing of my fiance, and just want to feel something other than the deep depression I've been going through the last week or so. I have about 400 mg of oxycodone, which I am saving for a particular day coming up soon. I have a huge tolerance to most everything I've tried, including op8's. I spent a couple of years IV'ing the junk, and now won't go near a needle. Just HOPING the 400mg will be enough for a nod, it will be questionable. been taking 10 mg daily of the oxy, prescribed 40mg per day, but saved up some for the special occasion.
Ok, I'm rambling. So.......Knowing the similarities to neurontin that Lyrica has. If Neurontin never did anything but hurt my joints at 1800 mg per day, do I have a chance of Lyrica producing anything pleasurable? I used to really enjoy the alprazolam feeling before tolerance went so high, now I feel nothing from it, just physically addicted. Thinking of taking a half dozen 10mg flexaril...they are sitting here in front of me...also thinking of taking maybe 100 mg of oxy, have enough I can do that without getting into my 400mg stash....though 100mg on it's own doesn't touch me. Too depressed to want to leave the house, but may be willing to go get some beer if that would make a noticeable difference. I know alcohol accentuates many other substances. I'd just love to get that old xanax feeling I used to get. Stumbling around and blacking out sounds fine to me right now.
NOT, looking to overdose, don't want to hurt myself, but want to get into a different headspace. Thoughts?
EDIT: got up to go to the bathroom after posting and did feel a little wobbly, but no euphoria or other mental change. Might be time to just take a few hundred mgs of Seroquel and hit the sack for 15 hours...