ok so the curiousity got to me ,i was pretty skeptical about kratom, i got a 10g sample of bali ,since its supposed to be more sedative
i downed 3/4 of bag ,and just simply forgot about it honestly ,maybe it was the skepticism i dunno ,but about 30min later i felt warmth throughout my body ,like the come up on oxy,then i got the feeling of damn i wanna do somthing so i started cleaning,i put up shelves that i had been putting off ,and i was totally focused on the project instead of having the feeling of "damn i wish i can be done with this" ,everytime i would sit down my eyes would unfocus if i didnt concentrate ...opiate craving were gone, also i had a sense of euphoria that i used to get from hydrocodone,wich for me was my choice over oxy .but oxy use became inevitable from tolerance,just for reference ive done codeine hydro oxy ,heroin ,methadone,bupe fentanyl ,i spent a good while abusing EACH on there own..
now ive been clean for a few months coming off a bad IV methadone habbit(it was a simple choice seeing hoit was so easy to get at the time) ,for a good fucking while it was 50-100mg a day wich didnt do much if nothing but make me well, and a weird rush that i had grown to look forward to (sad ....) anyway it(kratom) really suprised me ...seemed to make me want to just do things ,instead of "ehhh not right now" type of thing i usually have ,had some really weird dreams ,one where i had a doctor appointment that i didnt know about and thought it was like a checkup and ended up finding out he wanted to amputate my leg at the hip because of a tumor!!?? woke up pretty scared
im getting more to say the least i just hope i get the same affects ,now alot of u might not agree with this but i want to up the dose ,why ? because i know i will/would give in eventually to opiates ,and now that my tolerance is low and im not physically addicted im happy ,but not happy, because i dont have my DOC to come home to ,im hoping kratom changes this i mean it made me really happy that i got the feeling i did ,all i thought about was "NO MORE ILLEGAL ACTIVITY,OR NEEDLES ,OR SNORTING" AND I WAS REALLY GETTY(sp)
hell it even made my g/f want to try it ,AND SHE DONT DO OPIATES,hell she has barely smoked weed,took xanax 3 times so it shocked me
is it possible to nod from this i mean i felt sedated pretty well when i sat down but stimulated when standing ,if 7-9 g's did this to me what could i expect from 12-15g
i can only order small amouts at a time so every day use is out of the question,wich is good but hell i still felt some affects the next day,but..the day i took it i did get some "come down affects" that werent pleasant like anxiety,and nervousness
im rambling ,to say the least this COULD be my new DOC if all gos well ,im staying positive but somthing this good doesnt always fully satisfy in the end when it comes to beating opiate cravings,hope i worded that right