Okay, I actually feel like this thread could be an interesting discussion, so I've re-opened it. This has become a place to discuss the "Jesus trip", or perhaps it would be better named as something else (in fact, a better name would be great).
My own experience slowly rose up out of a streak of goodness in my life, coupled with a lot of psychedelics. I began using AMT fairly often, and I found that it connected me to the flow of universal love and inspiration. I discovered 4-AcO-DMT, and I found that it allowed a very unique effect of being joined with the universal consciousness, while still allowing the ego structure to remain surprisingly intact. I found that the combination produced an amazing state of awareness and connection and euphoria and love. For a good two to three months I got more and more euphoric and connected. I felt like everything was flowing perfectly and falling into place in my life. Synchronicity was everywhere. I felt as if I was affecting the outcome of real-world events based on my output of love and positivity. My cat recovered from near-death from heart disease overnight, and somehow attained a state of perfect health in every way. The vet said it was a medical miracle. The heart disease he found was gone entirely. I'm sure everyone could tell the direction I was heading here on Bluelight by my posts. I felt so amazingly inspired at all times.
This long experience came to a head one night, the night of my third +4 experience.
Here is the report. I felt as if I was an extension of the universe/universal consciousness, and that my purpose was to help create and maintain humankind's revolution, by starting the spread of love which would gain momentum and affect everyone.
I must stress that I never believed I was anyone special, never believed that I was Jesus reborn or anything like that. I believed (believe actually) that we are all just as special as anyone else. We all have the capacity to tune our energy to a heightened state in which we can output love and positivity to everything around us. By doing this, we can spread this energy around, and as it grows in others, those others can continue to spread it around to still others. In theory, eventually it would spread to the whole world. Although in reality I'm not sure it could ever happen. Some people are just too damaged.
So, delusion or truth? I don't know. What I do know is that I learned some things from that period of time that I apply to my life every day. I discovered that the secret to personal happiness is love, and the best way to feel love is to spread it to others. If you output positivity and love into the universe, it comes back to you. If you dwell in negativity, anger, or hate, that too will come back to you.
What I can say for sure is that taking psychedelics too often is not the way to maintain this state. And it definitely makes it much more difficult to determine what is real and what is a delusion brought on by a manic state of spiritual euphoria.
