anonman17
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 24, 2014
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Hey thanks for getting this moved again
I have a GP, but I don't want to tell her what is going on because she prescribes my morphine for my back pain and I don't want her to stop prescribing any and all pain meds to me because I really do have legitimate pain on a very regular basis. I had the option of getting into a pain clinic where they would have prescribed me loads and load more of pain meds but I turned that down because that would have taken me further down the rabbit hole.
I do have benzos at my disposal but I am afraid of that addiction, which can be terrible from what I hear. When the time comes for me to take the benzos, I'm gonna really keep them to the night time. I might have some friends who can get the other stuff on the list. Clonidine has been especially helpful to me in the past.
Yeah, I understand the taper feels fast. I don't even know what my starting dose is yet. My friend paid me some dope she owed me last night and because It was a different batch from what I have I decided to try "a little night cap." Which brought me back to the original amount of my original day one taper. I've been thinking all morning "what am I going to do if I am presented with a situation like that again?" One answer I had for myself was to cook it up and throw it my emergency bottle, which is a bottle of stuff I don't touch unless I'm in a bind. Anyways, I won't be presented with that particular situation again---but I will be presented with the possibility to go off my taper schedule. So, ways to just say no? (you'd think I would have this after five years in sobriety!)
Today is day two and I'm still figuring out my starting dose.
I'm definitely gonna try to keep in positive thoughts! I've got a lot of really great things to live for!!!
I have a GP, but I don't want to tell her what is going on because she prescribes my morphine for my back pain and I don't want her to stop prescribing any and all pain meds to me because I really do have legitimate pain on a very regular basis. I had the option of getting into a pain clinic where they would have prescribed me loads and load more of pain meds but I turned that down because that would have taken me further down the rabbit hole.
I do have benzos at my disposal but I am afraid of that addiction, which can be terrible from what I hear. When the time comes for me to take the benzos, I'm gonna really keep them to the night time. I might have some friends who can get the other stuff on the list. Clonidine has been especially helpful to me in the past.
Yeah, I understand the taper feels fast. I don't even know what my starting dose is yet. My friend paid me some dope she owed me last night and because It was a different batch from what I have I decided to try "a little night cap." Which brought me back to the original amount of my original day one taper. I've been thinking all morning "what am I going to do if I am presented with a situation like that again?" One answer I had for myself was to cook it up and throw it my emergency bottle, which is a bottle of stuff I don't touch unless I'm in a bind. Anyways, I won't be presented with that particular situation again---but I will be presented with the possibility to go off my taper schedule. So, ways to just say no? (you'd think I would have this after five years in sobriety!)
Today is day two and I'm still figuring out my starting dose.
I'm definitely gonna try to keep in positive thoughts! I've got a lot of really great things to live for!!!