SeveredPsyche
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 5, 2001
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- 329
Soma:
I've spoken to people who have been iv users of smack and speed, and they said speed was the worse of all.
A friend who has been using smack for 15 + years and finally got off it last year is now on speed. She can't believe how bad she feels compared to smack, both on it and trying to get off it.
While I've never had smack, I know what IVing speed on a regular basis can do. 2 weeks off it and you still can't concentrate properly, you're snappy and can feel like your world has no borders or structure to it which can be very fucking scary. Trying to deal with a full time job and other commitments...there's no motivation and you're constantly dealing with emotions that come from nowhere. Trying to rationalise them...then you find someone has been talking to for the last 10 minutes and you have no idea what it was about. The pause in a phone call lasts 30 seconds and the client is wondering if you're still there. The panic..."aah..umm.." then just repeating what you said last...if you can remember.
friends in "the scene" drop some round in your lunch break. others judge harshly and/or don't want to know. There are 2 people who will properly listen but sometimes that's all you need.
lowman how is it going now?