So, I was sitting in the community corrections lobby this morning, waiting to see my parole officer for our regular monthly office visit. I'd just left the suboxone clinic minutes before, that rancid melange of artificial orange and ass lingering steadfast on my tongue. In my state of bored tension, a feeling I've found unique to the purgatory of that one particular waiting room, I got the bright idea of googling an opioid strength/dosage comparison chart, curious to see how my government-subsidized habit stacked up against some of the pharmaceutical compounds I previously copped on the street.
Now, I've long been careful to harbor no delusions about it - I'm not clean, I'm not sober, but I'm not committing crimes to buy illegal street drugs, I'm not waking up dope sick every morning, and I'm not risking a probable or eventual likely overdose every time either.
That said, and going into it already knowing that 16mg bupe is a pretty hefty dose, I really could have lived without knowing I still consume the equivalent of 1,280mg of morphine DAILY.
Fuck, I didn't even do that much morphine when I was ON morphine. I topped out at about 600mg a day.
I got a fucking problem, really need to rein that shit in..